Sunday, June 24, 2012
I meant!
telling us they don't mind if we do something we wouldn't do otherwise because it will backfire. I don't know where this started. Is there something we're supposed to do that we can't?
This is not a good time to be making suggestions.
Well, I found out what it was about. Pretty much, you're supposed to be as accurate as possible, or else you're out. Like, I posted online, but I wasn't satisfying enough, not valuable enough, yet. I feel better about myself now.
It's whoever calls the police first.
The other person didn't call so aren't honest about being with someone guilty.
I guess I can take a break from singing.
I have a long way to go. I can't do ballet much now, but I work out. I'm thinking of reading. I enjoyed reading the synopsizes of movies.
Moving
The whole problem with my life moving was people thought I should have done dance team, and the 2nd year wasn't as stimulating.
Telling someone they're wrong who's not
is very stimulating.
Well, somme people ... just go about thinking there's nothing to think about and that certain people can act how they want around them, I guess, and others can't who mean well. They don't see all sides of the issue. They are foreign to what they think they're teaching you, and it never made sense.
Well, somme people ... just go about thinking there's nothing to think about and that certain people can act how they want around them, I guess, and others can't who mean well. They don't see all sides of the issue. They are foreign to what they think they're teaching you, and it never made sense.
I don't want anyone to get hurt.
How can what I do hurt other people, just explaining when they're wrong? Like the ways it's not right. I never willed that on anyone. People just need to forget their problems. They are genuine, but all this is not how it's meant to be. Blame people who do things wrong. It always works.
I've realized that
I'm better off at home than in college.
I thought my dad was using they keyboard. I lost my piano, my home, and my memories in the flood, literally!
I might bring the keyboard in here. I am so lazy and yet don't feel up to looking up words in Italian.
I thought my dad was using they keyboard. I lost my piano, my home, and my memories in the flood, literally!
I might bring the keyboard in here. I am so lazy and yet don't feel up to looking up words in Italian.
The DVD Thing
I just wanted something to do I guess. I had a feeling. I guess that feeling was wrong. I don't know why. I think it was simply because I was told to do it. I mean, I'm allowed to. I mean, really, maybe it doesn't change anything. I guess I should have realized the situation. I have another situation. Kate Bush has released lots of new CDs, and I want to get a Nook next month and for some reason don't have much money. Also, I want to buy a book online, now. Anyway, iTunes lets you enjoy songs one at a time and still get a discount as you complete the CD. I don't have enough money! :( I don't have clothes! I wasted my money on stuff I don't like, proving I should have already bought these things. I've bought all of Viggo Mortensen's, well the beginning 10 or something, DVDs but have been living life just watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and picking at other things to do somehow.
I'm thinking I've done something awful.
I think the problem is I will not live my life in limbo not talking about anything I want. I can't even do what I want in private what's agreed upon with another person. Anyway, I can shut up, but some things are important to know, and writing them out helps me. Who's gonna care? I can think it. I shouldn't, but it settles the issue for me. I thought it was right because I don't understand it. If someone doesn't want me to say something doesn't mean it's the right thing. It might be important. I can't think unless I think out loud, and I have a need to communicate. People are gonna find out, anyway, I mean like the things that are going on in general. I don't know how to deal with this, but I'm not rude in what I do. I was just treated wrongly myself, and there was no reason for it. Maybe, in a way, there was.
I think the mistake|s people made are like in punishing me for the "n" word thing. I can't believe the world. If you'll notice, I mean, I've said that they wanted to do it and they did. So what? I won't do it again because it's not cool. I'm just being treated sorta stupidly. It's not good for other people to live like this. I really see a lot in other people. I don't feel popular, but it's good, I don't want to be.
I'm thinking I've done something awful.
I think the problem is I will not live my life in limbo not talking about anything I want. I can't even do what I want in private what's agreed upon with another person. Anyway, I can shut up, but some things are important to know, and writing them out helps me. Who's gonna care? I can think it. I shouldn't, but it settles the issue for me. I thought it was right because I don't understand it. If someone doesn't want me to say something doesn't mean it's the right thing. It might be important. I can't think unless I think out loud, and I have a need to communicate. People are gonna find out, anyway, I mean like the things that are going on in general. I don't know how to deal with this, but I'm not rude in what I do. I was just treated wrongly myself, and there was no reason for it. Maybe, in a way, there was.
I think the mistake|s people made are like in punishing me for the "n" word thing. I can't believe the world. If you'll notice, I mean, I've said that they wanted to do it and they did. So what? I won't do it again because it's not cool. I'm just being treated sorta stupidly. It's not good for other people to live like this. I really see a lot in other people. I don't feel popular, but it's good, I don't want to be.
So, I was
and am well aware that sometimes I've gotten feelings growing up that I want to get it out, the worst of my personality, but that is not something I do, now nor on purpose! I am, in now ay a perv, and I respect what is set up in life. Too bad about the "n" word thing. Who cares about me, now? Well, what do people want to happen to me? Wait for some lunatic to kill me because I stand out because of the "n" word thing? Well, I guess I can get over it. Thanks, for broadcasting my true feelings in the matter.
Being Made Fun Of
I don't remember ... maybe it was my being like a classical|traditional I mean old-fashioned person and the "n" word thing that people sense from me... It was tough a bit. I just reacted in the end that I don't fashion up myself for anyone sexually, like look like a young person who has a typical look that shows they're like a doll version of their elders or something, or like a more stimulated, more warped version of their parents, like an overly happy version of an older generation.
Johnny Depp literally
wants everyone to forget about their family and staying young. He is saying that you're nothing if you're not famous now.
It - is - not time for me to "start" anything! :D Getting together with family who have caused me to get mad every time I see them somehow, in ways I forget and making me feel bad or is it just me? I haven't even seen my grandma up north since I was fif teen. I loved going up, but my life changed. I've been hibernating and had active summers in school.
It - is - not time for me to "start" anything! :D Getting together with family who have caused me to get mad every time I see them somehow, in ways I forget and making me feel bad or is it just me? I haven't even seen my grandma up north since I was fif teen. I loved going up, but my life changed. I've been hibernating and had active summers in school.
I always saw-
Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter as being like other people. I guess me also coming from a similar place as Johnny and having a non-Caucasian mom has taken its toll.
People are just interested in heritage. I know Ellen DeGeneres is from Metarie (sp?) and I'm from Slidell. I'm a Slidell person. Metarie is close, but it's very different. They're both suburbs of New Orleans.
People are just interested in heritage. I know Ellen DeGeneres is from Metarie (sp?) and I'm from Slidell. I'm a Slidell person. Metarie is close, but it's very different. They're both suburbs of New Orleans.
Whittling Me Away
like a pig preparing for its own slaughter.
*looks from side to side*
Okay, I can do this.
People are afraid to interact with me, and I want to know what they want of me. It's fun to feel nothing.
*looks from side to side*
Okay, I can do this.
People are afraid to interact with me, and I want to know what they want of me. It's fun to feel nothing.
I was thinking...
...So, yea, I know Renée Fleming moved to northwestern New York state, and Chloë Moretz also moved to New York but New York City, from Georgia, from Atlanta. So, she's only lived in major cities. My dad's family I think are only from southwestern New York but ancestrally and mostly from northwestern Pennsylvania.
I can't be too mad. I guess I'm just gonna have to be who I am. Wait, why did I say that?
I can't be too mad. I guess I'm just gonna have to be who I am. Wait, why did I say that?
So, I guess people need to basically
realize they don't do certain details that they should do.
I was thinking of race. I don't know that England seems so perfect. You never know what ethnicity someone is.
I grew up thinking that people were always always mad at me for not stretching what I do in that I was too good. I guess I just about had it at some point. If that person wants you to be bad to them then they do. Instead, the world is fooling you.
I was thinking of race. I don't know that England seems so perfect. You never know what ethnicity someone is.
I grew up thinking that people were always always mad at me for not stretching what I do in that I was too good. I guess I just about had it at some point. If that person wants you to be bad to them then they do. Instead, the world is fooling you.
Like My Dad
I think that my grandma doesn't actually tell you what she's doing to you and just does it. Just because of the "n" word thing, I think she has become more critical concerning me but does things she'd do anyway regardless of me. She acts sorry after she seems upset with me. My family questions my existence. That is completely inappropriate and out of the question. I hardly relate to my brother. It's big I let him have his life. I even go outwards from people I'm related to. I am a real person. I even live with magic. I see things in patterns. I do the right thing... I don't see what the big deal is, with someone, about a kid's existence. I feel a bit arrested about my brother having kids, like he's mad at me about something someone I know did... like I did it on purpose. He can chose to react how he wants. That's his fault, but in a way I guess it's really no one's fault.
I don't see ... well, I see people are excited to critique me and have trashed my life in some literal or abstract sense, literally.
I see that people don't care that they're not prepared to do something very complex. I am thinking of Chloë Moretz. She moved to NYC. She doesn't think and figure like me. Then, I'm thinking of Ellen DeGeneres. She doesn't, neither. I think I'm not getting quite right out of the show what seems important, thinking of things like this, which makes me concerned, about her.
So, people just don't want me to get attention.
Hm. I am curious.
I don't like this. I mean, people don't want me to exist. They think I am a sin and that all I deserve is Hell. All I can say is I don't approve of what all they do... :/ Hm. Maybe, I'm making some of it up. People just don't get I didn't want to do the "n" word thing and explained how it could be avoided, but I was convinced, literally, that words are just words. I would never use the "n" word on someone, but I thought someone since using the word gay wanted to get me to use the "n" word on their kid online. I think that them calling the older kid, a boy, gay, would affect them.
Well, ... I think a lot of people like me and admire me. People think what I do is just sin. I don't really want my life to be cheap. I want it to be real.
I am curious. There aren't many kids in my family my age nor older. I did not chose to be born. That's all.
People seem big on the idea that working is the only thing that matters.
People think that it's unfair I exist. I've always paved the way for others to get attention from those that I love. Now, people are trying to like get me not to take up space. I was in college.
It's funny, you know, I have 2 aunts on my dad's side, and they didn't have kids until after me because for some reason it seems they didn't marry and have kids younger. On my mom's side, I have an aunt who is 16 years older than me. She lives in Indonesia, and I asked my mom how many recently born sons she has, but she said she only had 3 when she had I think 5.
People have treated me like I'm a sin. Thank you so much for the "n" word situation, like I'm bad enough to represent I'd do that otherwise. It might not be tactful for me to say, but I'm just saying in general. It shouldn't be anyone's fault. Who knew? I did.
People have mistreated me all my life. It's like they think they're a person and I'm not.
Thinking, I can see now that maybe my life is fun. I can live with my parents if I want. It seems that my life is empty.
... You know ... Hey, if my life is a sin, then whose isn't?
It's funny, in my family my parents are closer to their families than me, though I live with them and go out with my dad, often. I don't know why it seems that ... I am very curious about the sexual relationship of my parents. You know, I don't feel much... Hm. Ever since that lady looked at me funnily when I was thinking a good thought I stopped feeling much.
I don't believe that I deserve anything bad. I've been mistreated, but I'm pretty much on target personality-wise compared to other people.
People just pick at what doesn't seem attractive in me.
PEOPLE I AM NOT A SIN.
People care about others more than me and don't realize that until they've done their deed.
I am not worthless. I have made it.
I had to make myself a person. Wow, do to me what you sin. It's no secret. Sometimes, you say things, when things are harder than they should be, but people have been picking at me like I don't mean anything. I do everything for a reason when I can't figure it out. Don't go in secret and be dishonest with me. I didn't do anything wrong. I know people who have. I guess people just don't want me to exist. Why not rat on some other person? Don't think you own me. I am not a sin, and even if I was had in sin it wouldn't matter. People need a guide, so they need me. How sick is that? I mean, it's funny they think that's not okay, that like if I got more attention people wouldn't be as jealous because they'd be more like me in ways of things they don't understand. People in this area ...
Ugh!
Even kids think they can outdo me, but I just chose not to ruin their life. I do things in silence!
I am curious that some people think they can control your life. It seems like it's people who know more about you. I wonder why I am so easy to control. I wanted to live life like everyone else, but it seems I was not bestowed with love, properly, like I've been tossed around emotionally.
If my parents had me in sin does not mean I can be tortured. You don't do this to anyone else, and it's all because of the pointless "n" word thing.
Wow, thanks for ruining my life. It's not my fault you are like complaining about your life.
Even my dad gets bored of me. In ways, he doesn't.
I'm mad now about the "n" word thing on my birthday. That lady. Ugh...
I'm wondering why my parents had me, and I guess it was to be proud of their kids and show off how our life is but still say like I don't count because I'm Chinese and Chinese are always good, like I wasn't good on my own. Like it's unfair to other kids. I guess people see others having kids and decide to follow and make their kids one step better. It's better in what they consider better, which is probably just a difference from other parents.
Now, I'm thinking. People seem to think I'm bad. I am thinking of something that happened as a coincidence or outside advising. It was something that was said that relates to this. I went to the concert of an Irish singer. I follow her online, but she doesn't post there much anymore. I hadn't gotten her Christmas CD yet because I never had enough money and was intimidated to ask my parents for any money. So, at the concert, my dad bought it for me. So, I didn't want to have her see I hadn't seen her CD yet because she'd recognize me. I had been posting on her site, too, which I assume no one cared about it'd seem, just to socialize as people do. So, maybe not the best experience, sharing things with her fans. So, anyway, my dad and aunt told me to get the Christmas CD signed, so I did. So, it wasn't really my fault. I didn't know quite how bad it was if I thought it was bad and I was told very much to get it signed. Now, people think I'm worthless and simple and have been able to read into me. It's like ...
Okay, so people because of the "n" word thing are going into in great length and experience that they, well can't get everything, but that they're in the right and I'm in the wrong. -Not to jump at anything: I know that's not what we learn is right, not what we learn in church, neither. I don't deserve to be treated like this. I knew what I was doing. It's hard on me, though, anyone would know.
Ah! I forgot what else I was going to say.
Oh, I don't believe ...
Oh, so you want to know why I brought up some things? I figured I was considered worthless for the CD thing, that I had no point in existing. It's because I was thought I was worthless. I don't know, though.
Fine, go ahead and call me a nigger. I'm not gonna be one. I'd rather be called one.
So, anyway, it seems people have always assured me when I inquired that I was good, but now they're secretly punishing me because they know I can figure myself out of any guilt. I never even did anything wrong on purpose. I did what I was supposed to do and was not told otherwise. People are too lazy to care about what bothers them.
In school, we didn't do much, neither.
So, I don't approve of the perverted messages I get and people thinking they can get away with saying they respect me. It's just because of the thing where I didn't feel well in college probably because people were going crazy over Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Danny Elfman for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I guess people will have to ... I dunno.
And then the "n" word thing. It seems all people want is to insult me. Why don't people get someone acted like they wanted to do it TO LEARN. I didn't do it at first because I was like okay I'll just get called that back, DUH. I don't even need to think about that. Yes, they wanted it. I wouldn't do it for anyone now, though, like to get me in trouble.
I really am not a bad person. I always cared that I was doing the right thing. I don't know why people are so racist against me.
People have always treated me like a nigger. It's very hard to not be affected because I was. My life wasn't so great. I don't know how to feel anymore, affectively. I feel better, though. Maybe, I need a break from what things were like. It's all because of the racism online and what happened in real life that I got kicked out of my major and voice lessons. I really believed my life was an experiment and then that things were magic. Still, there are reasons and I've sorta whipped the thinking into shape. You don't make it so that it's all set up you want someone to do something you don't want them to do that they can't tell. I wasn't able to think it through. It was in case I would do it by accident. It seems that people upon meeting me felt more encouraged to rub in feelings. I'll just have to ignore that and just hope no one affects my life. It's sick people think they can actually plot against me. I guess I'm just a good person.
I feel ignored because people have families. I'm not really with my parents so so much. I do it because it's good quality time. I am a worldly person, though, but it's true I don't get much in way of feelings in my time in the world and now no fun. I'm not sure in lieu what's wrong.
I used to go to clubs every night. I was well-liked.
I like all people a lot, but I feel I can't be trusted.
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I don't see ... well, I see people are excited to critique me and have trashed my life in some literal or abstract sense, literally.
I see that people don't care that they're not prepared to do something very complex. I am thinking of Chloë Moretz. She moved to NYC. She doesn't think and figure like me. Then, I'm thinking of Ellen DeGeneres. She doesn't, neither. I think I'm not getting quite right out of the show what seems important, thinking of things like this, which makes me concerned, about her.
So, people just don't want me to get attention.
Hm. I am curious.
I don't like this. I mean, people don't want me to exist. They think I am a sin and that all I deserve is Hell. All I can say is I don't approve of what all they do... :/ Hm. Maybe, I'm making some of it up. People just don't get I didn't want to do the "n" word thing and explained how it could be avoided, but I was convinced, literally, that words are just words. I would never use the "n" word on someone, but I thought someone since using the word gay wanted to get me to use the "n" word on their kid online. I think that them calling the older kid, a boy, gay, would affect them.
Well, ... I think a lot of people like me and admire me. People think what I do is just sin. I don't really want my life to be cheap. I want it to be real.
I am curious. There aren't many kids in my family my age nor older. I did not chose to be born. That's all.
People seem big on the idea that working is the only thing that matters.
People think that it's unfair I exist. I've always paved the way for others to get attention from those that I love. Now, people are trying to like get me not to take up space. I was in college.
It's funny, you know, I have 2 aunts on my dad's side, and they didn't have kids until after me because for some reason it seems they didn't marry and have kids younger. On my mom's side, I have an aunt who is 16 years older than me. She lives in Indonesia, and I asked my mom how many recently born sons she has, but she said she only had 3 when she had I think 5.
People have treated me like I'm a sin. Thank you so much for the "n" word situation, like I'm bad enough to represent I'd do that otherwise. It might not be tactful for me to say, but I'm just saying in general. It shouldn't be anyone's fault. Who knew? I did.
People have mistreated me all my life. It's like they think they're a person and I'm not.
Thinking, I can see now that maybe my life is fun. I can live with my parents if I want. It seems that my life is empty.
... You know ... Hey, if my life is a sin, then whose isn't?
It's funny, in my family my parents are closer to their families than me, though I live with them and go out with my dad, often. I don't know why it seems that ... I am very curious about the sexual relationship of my parents. You know, I don't feel much... Hm. Ever since that lady looked at me funnily when I was thinking a good thought I stopped feeling much.
I don't believe that I deserve anything bad. I've been mistreated, but I'm pretty much on target personality-wise compared to other people.
People just pick at what doesn't seem attractive in me.
PEOPLE I AM NOT A SIN.
People care about others more than me and don't realize that until they've done their deed.
I am not worthless. I have made it.
I had to make myself a person. Wow, do to me what you sin. It's no secret. Sometimes, you say things, when things are harder than they should be, but people have been picking at me like I don't mean anything. I do everything for a reason when I can't figure it out. Don't go in secret and be dishonest with me. I didn't do anything wrong. I know people who have. I guess people just don't want me to exist. Why not rat on some other person? Don't think you own me. I am not a sin, and even if I was had in sin it wouldn't matter. People need a guide, so they need me. How sick is that? I mean, it's funny they think that's not okay, that like if I got more attention people wouldn't be as jealous because they'd be more like me in ways of things they don't understand. People in this area ...
Ugh!
Even kids think they can outdo me, but I just chose not to ruin their life. I do things in silence!
I am curious that some people think they can control your life. It seems like it's people who know more about you. I wonder why I am so easy to control. I wanted to live life like everyone else, but it seems I was not bestowed with love, properly, like I've been tossed around emotionally.
If my parents had me in sin does not mean I can be tortured. You don't do this to anyone else, and it's all because of the pointless "n" word thing.
Wow, thanks for ruining my life. It's not my fault you are like complaining about your life.
Even my dad gets bored of me. In ways, he doesn't.
I'm mad now about the "n" word thing on my birthday. That lady. Ugh...
I'm wondering why my parents had me, and I guess it was to be proud of their kids and show off how our life is but still say like I don't count because I'm Chinese and Chinese are always good, like I wasn't good on my own. Like it's unfair to other kids. I guess people see others having kids and decide to follow and make their kids one step better. It's better in what they consider better, which is probably just a difference from other parents.
Now, I'm thinking. People seem to think I'm bad. I am thinking of something that happened as a coincidence or outside advising. It was something that was said that relates to this. I went to the concert of an Irish singer. I follow her online, but she doesn't post there much anymore. I hadn't gotten her Christmas CD yet because I never had enough money and was intimidated to ask my parents for any money. So, at the concert, my dad bought it for me. So, I didn't want to have her see I hadn't seen her CD yet because she'd recognize me. I had been posting on her site, too, which I assume no one cared about it'd seem, just to socialize as people do. So, maybe not the best experience, sharing things with her fans. So, anyway, my dad and aunt told me to get the Christmas CD signed, so I did. So, it wasn't really my fault. I didn't know quite how bad it was if I thought it was bad and I was told very much to get it signed. Now, people think I'm worthless and simple and have been able to read into me. It's like ...
Okay, so people because of the "n" word thing are going into in great length and experience that they, well can't get everything, but that they're in the right and I'm in the wrong. -Not to jump at anything: I know that's not what we learn is right, not what we learn in church, neither. I don't deserve to be treated like this. I knew what I was doing. It's hard on me, though, anyone would know.
Ah! I forgot what else I was going to say.
Oh, I don't believe ...
Oh, so you want to know why I brought up some things? I figured I was considered worthless for the CD thing, that I had no point in existing. It's because I was thought I was worthless. I don't know, though.
Fine, go ahead and call me a nigger. I'm not gonna be one. I'd rather be called one.
So, anyway, it seems people have always assured me when I inquired that I was good, but now they're secretly punishing me because they know I can figure myself out of any guilt. I never even did anything wrong on purpose. I did what I was supposed to do and was not told otherwise. People are too lazy to care about what bothers them.
In school, we didn't do much, neither.
So, I don't approve of the perverted messages I get and people thinking they can get away with saying they respect me. It's just because of the thing where I didn't feel well in college probably because people were going crazy over Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Danny Elfman for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I guess people will have to ... I dunno.
And then the "n" word thing. It seems all people want is to insult me. Why don't people get someone acted like they wanted to do it TO LEARN. I didn't do it at first because I was like okay I'll just get called that back, DUH. I don't even need to think about that. Yes, they wanted it. I wouldn't do it for anyone now, though, like to get me in trouble.
I really am not a bad person. I always cared that I was doing the right thing. I don't know why people are so racist against me.
People have always treated me like a nigger. It's very hard to not be affected because I was. My life wasn't so great. I don't know how to feel anymore, affectively. I feel better, though. Maybe, I need a break from what things were like. It's all because of the racism online and what happened in real life that I got kicked out of my major and voice lessons. I really believed my life was an experiment and then that things were magic. Still, there are reasons and I've sorta whipped the thinking into shape. You don't make it so that it's all set up you want someone to do something you don't want them to do that they can't tell. I wasn't able to think it through. It was in case I would do it by accident. It seems that people upon meeting me felt more encouraged to rub in feelings. I'll just have to ignore that and just hope no one affects my life. It's sick people think they can actually plot against me. I guess I'm just a good person.
I feel ignored because people have families. I'm not really with my parents so so much. I do it because it's good quality time. I am a worldly person, though, but it's true I don't get much in way of feelings in my time in the world and now no fun. I'm not sure in lieu what's wrong.
I used to go to clubs every night. I was well-liked.
I like all people a lot, but I feel I can't be trusted.
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Things aren't always as they seem.
So, I tried to look like someone and I found it was impossible. I looked different but had the same attitude. Then, I tried doing it more physically and didn't have any of the attitude down.
Pensive
I thought that to meet people you had to have a reason. It's not just because you're lucky. So, what happens to people who do just meet to meet compared with ones they meet later?
I was wondering because I was concerned. I was thinking of meeting Tim Burton, but he's busy with his family. I noticed that he acts like his son, in a lot of ways but in a way that makes it kind of in fun, like how you make things tacky for fun. I notice he's like his daughter like he likes to make her feel really good, haha, as papas do.
So, a lot of people want to meet Tim Burton. I'm not dying to. I think I should be able to work with him, but I do music and he doesn't. He works with Danny Elfman, a composer, pianist, singer... I posted online I wanted to work with him, like for a project with Tim... Well, I also like to draw. Singers can act or chose to. I wonder - yes, he's worked with dancing. I watched all his movies, so I know what to say about him, same with Johnny Depp and some others. I found it wasn't really necessary|tangible to watch all the old movies of an actor. I go to the movies to see modern movies, and that's enough of a schedule of staring watching a screen.
Perhaps, I'm not ready, but I know if I did something for money I'd have money to get myself ready for something bigger. I feel kinda stuck, but I'm seeing the wear and tear of my life. We don't make enough money, and I'm not fit for a job. I'm half Chinese.
I guess I started this rant because I was tickled at the love for Nell Burton, the daughter of Tim and his partner Helena Bonham Carter, though they're not married.
I don't like feeling bad about myself, though. I realize Tim is a great director, but I'm not *shit* *looks from side to side* I feel trashier all the time, I guess, though I am getting healthier.
It's funny how Tim, well, he fell in love with Helena Bonham Carter, obviously. He spotted her out.
Tim says that he can be like totally made to feel certain ways without his doing it. It's funny how he seems the opposite. In some ways, he's not all there. I feel the same way about Ellen DeGeneres. They are both born around the same time of year and are from the dead south about. I just now realized that Chloë Moretz also from the dead south, same latitude as these 2, is like them, though she moved to New York City. However, I've always lived in the south. I've only lived in northern Ohio for maybe 2 months. I was doing a semester there but had to go home because of how I was. I totally transformed myself.
I've been in Orlando ... and I can't see with me how doing something to get it over with makes me not do it again. I'm glad it works for other people. They can do whatever they want. I find that the only thing is that it's popped into my head. It hasn't always like that. The south is where I've always lived. I don't feel like I'm connected to it, but Florida really is considered like New York.
I was wondering because I was concerned. I was thinking of meeting Tim Burton, but he's busy with his family. I noticed that he acts like his son, in a lot of ways but in a way that makes it kind of in fun, like how you make things tacky for fun. I notice he's like his daughter like he likes to make her feel really good, haha, as papas do.
So, a lot of people want to meet Tim Burton. I'm not dying to. I think I should be able to work with him, but I do music and he doesn't. He works with Danny Elfman, a composer, pianist, singer... I posted online I wanted to work with him, like for a project with Tim... Well, I also like to draw. Singers can act or chose to. I wonder - yes, he's worked with dancing. I watched all his movies, so I know what to say about him, same with Johnny Depp and some others. I found it wasn't really necessary|tangible to watch all the old movies of an actor. I go to the movies to see modern movies, and that's enough of a schedule of staring watching a screen.
Perhaps, I'm not ready, but I know if I did something for money I'd have money to get myself ready for something bigger. I feel kinda stuck, but I'm seeing the wear and tear of my life. We don't make enough money, and I'm not fit for a job. I'm half Chinese.
I guess I started this rant because I was tickled at the love for Nell Burton, the daughter of Tim and his partner Helena Bonham Carter, though they're not married.
I don't like feeling bad about myself, though. I realize Tim is a great director, but I'm not *shit* *looks from side to side* I feel trashier all the time, I guess, though I am getting healthier.
It's funny how Tim, well, he fell in love with Helena Bonham Carter, obviously. He spotted her out.
Tim says that he can be like totally made to feel certain ways without his doing it. It's funny how he seems the opposite. In some ways, he's not all there. I feel the same way about Ellen DeGeneres. They are both born around the same time of year and are from the dead south about. I just now realized that Chloë Moretz also from the dead south, same latitude as these 2, is like them, though she moved to New York City. However, I've always lived in the south. I've only lived in northern Ohio for maybe 2 months. I was doing a semester there but had to go home because of how I was. I totally transformed myself.
I've been in Orlando ... and I can't see with me how doing something to get it over with makes me not do it again. I'm glad it works for other people. They can do whatever they want. I find that the only thing is that it's popped into my head. It hasn't always like that. The south is where I've always lived. I don't feel like I'm connected to it, but Florida really is considered like New York.
I got so agitated.
This guy was drumming when I was looking at pizza. He was staring at me. He acted like I was ... shit! An older guy tried to look sympathetic with me, but I still reacted. The girl acted like I was nothing after awhile, too. I regret it now. My dad said the food there wasn't good. They didn't make pepperoni calzones|strombolis this time. He doesn't want to eat there anymore. I got 2 calzones|strombolis before. My dad took me there before we watched a play showing at the movie theater, Frankenstein. It's neat because Tim Burton is coming out with Frankenweenie October 5th.
How shall I say this?
People are mad at me because they think their hidden racism is okay. They don't feel I feel enough for them. Like I mean like I care. Like, I technically give into their superiority, but I don't agree I was given any opportunity to be who I was!
How I Sort My Pictures
So, I take the ones that look good, but if they all look the same even if they're good I skip them.
Why do people who do ballet
look different in how much you'd think they should have done what they've done?
*looks side to side*
*looks side to side*
Why would I get in trouble for
thinking something I didn't think. I hope that thought doesn't escape you. Maybe, it does. I mean, like, I did something, said something, but didn't think what you think I thought when I said it and didn't mean it in a way that could be meant.
Why would people think
your goal is perverted and that you *haven't done it yet* and therefore aren't ready to see anyone?
People who think being ...
like where you exchange ideals and values rather than set yourself on the ideal you actually believe in ... or are obviously "jealous" of ... I guess it's important to set your standards. Some people do things like they mean it, though. I don't find it funny because my life isn't dished to me on a plate, anymore. I think people should learn to change their lives.
So
you have to be able to do things, change things about yourself and act differently within different times, so you desire?
If I could take back one thing
it would be not to fall for someone wanting me to call their kid the "n" word online, which you know is always twisted, I mean the reasoning behind what people do here. :|
Why do people even
test your reasons to want to be famous? I mean in a way that feels like your life is over. I'm not really famous!!!
Suffering
You shouldn't make the WRONG people suffer. Sure, you not doing something might be okay sometimes. It depends on your intention and how you do it. I don't see why some people feel so knocked out in their dreams. That just shows what they're not ready for and they've convinced others out of ever doing things they want to do!
Don't do something *early* or whatever just because bad people suffer because you're calling upon good people to do things they can't do. In the end, they will be the ones who die. Let the military suffer. That's sad, but it's true. You can't go twisting others's private dreams, like saying it's moot. I see people do that a lot. You have to be very careful how you do things. Every time you do something new, something happens. Some things weren't really right to begin with and should be changed, though. I know that. I was too hardy to get out of a hard class in high school, and my life was ruined! My family! Everything! Ev ery thing!!!
My priority in fact, after disabled, went to military. I just can't grasp the concept that people are so stupid that we send out the military and they die, even more and more at times. You might think that certain people won't commit suicide, won't get killed, but there are some things that could get innocent people killed who aren't in the military and who don't do drugs. It's obvious the bad people cause our men to die in troops. They aren't set right and mess up because of others. That doesn't mean they're worthless. They chose to die. So, I said to let the military die because someone has to die and it shouldn't be people who aren't in the military. I'm saying you can't think that you're saving others when you jeopardize some others's lives, and yes that would involve the military. They die for you. That's what they're trained to do, sadly. I really have them I think as my 2nd priority with the 3rd people old people in nursing homes. I won't give to the poor!
Don't do something *early* or whatever just because bad people suffer because you're calling upon good people to do things they can't do. In the end, they will be the ones who die. Let the military suffer. That's sad, but it's true. You can't go twisting others's private dreams, like saying it's moot. I see people do that a lot. You have to be very careful how you do things. Every time you do something new, something happens. Some things weren't really right to begin with and should be changed, though. I know that. I was too hardy to get out of a hard class in high school, and my life was ruined! My family! Everything! Ev ery thing!!!
My priority in fact, after disabled, went to military. I just can't grasp the concept that people are so stupid that we send out the military and they die, even more and more at times. You might think that certain people won't commit suicide, won't get killed, but there are some things that could get innocent people killed who aren't in the military and who don't do drugs. It's obvious the bad people cause our men to die in troops. They aren't set right and mess up because of others. That doesn't mean they're worthless. They chose to die. So, I said to let the military die because someone has to die and it shouldn't be people who aren't in the military. I'm saying you can't think that you're saving others when you jeopardize some others's lives, and yes that would involve the military. They die for you. That's what they're trained to do, sadly. I really have them I think as my 2nd priority with the 3rd people old people in nursing homes. I won't give to the poor!
People think I give suggestions.
I so do not. There are a lot of protocols set up in this country and the others. It all has to do with playing with words and demands that you take it. I don't make fun of others.
The fact that I can't make a point is definitely untrue. People think if I mess up they're better when they've messed up more times. If they haven't, then good. It just seems like others do. Anyone can see that. It's like they're thinking of some obscure thing we don't know about that they did wrong in private.
The fact that I can't make a point is definitely untrue. People think if I mess up they're better when they've messed up more times. If they haven't, then good. It just seems like others do. Anyone can see that. It's like they're thinking of some obscure thing we don't know about that they did wrong in private.
PEOPLE ARE ALLOWED TO BE THEMSELVES
There is no, oh, I'm not from a modern place. I'm also from a backwards place. Backwards meaning doesn't contend.
Like, the whole country is upset.
Like, the whole country is upset.
Um.
I know that I'm okay and don't need anything of my life extracted and presented. That's just silly nonsense. :|
Well, it is important what you do and say, but it's the same reason it'd be important to everybody|anyone else.
Well, it is important what you do and say, but it's the same reason it'd be important to everybody|anyone else.
Ruined!
I should have been given to a different mother.
I swear, my mom must think I'm shit and alchol, shit in general but alcohol because my dad's dad drank. That's so insulting. You just don't understand. Why want me to think LIKE THAT? Don't get mad at her. She didn't mean it like that, really. I think she thinks she can read into my brother, too, that he's the same as me and works the same and makes him the opposite of what I want. You know, just to stimulate him. :| I don't agree at all with contending to the world. I don't agree at all for caring about other people who want to insult you. I do not need to rehearse it. :|
I swear, my mom must think I'm shit and alchol, shit in general but alcohol because my dad's dad drank. That's so insulting. You just don't understand. Why want me to think LIKE THAT? Don't get mad at her. She didn't mean it like that, really. I think she thinks she can read into my brother, too, that he's the same as me and works the same and makes him the opposite of what I want. You know, just to stimulate him. :| I don't agree at all with contending to the world. I don't agree at all for caring about other people who want to insult you. I do not need to rehearse it. :|
Why do you think it is okay
and tangible that someone could be mistreated by you? If you thought that, wouldn't you just care about that they're okay? I'm just wondering. I wasn't able to word this how I wanted.
I kinda forget
oh nevermind.
Um, hard to think of without letting slip my mind...
Okay, I can see one thing ...
Um ... Okay ... I guess things, however trivial, end up being dealt with.
Um, hard to think of without letting slip my mind...
Okay, I can see one thing ...
Um ... Okay ... I guess things, however trivial, end up being dealt with.
There are certain things in how you deal with a person
that can't be just shy of calling them the "n" word.
Why can't you people, like, all realize that..
..I'm always right, in the end! I can figure this out! I admit I've had some technical trial and error issues. You didn't help me out enough, though, and didn't seem to let my life steer in the same way!!
They have this desire
to control every facet of your life. They flip around what you've done to them, I'm guessing, except the situation is different, which is what is actually at least also important or important to just be okay. It shouldn't be bland, though. I shouldn't be told I'm very different in a way that people can't get to me and then think I could actually mess up my whole life without doing much and then saying I'm like everyone else when everyone else is mean to me.
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