Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I hate people.
Why do they code in something to happen to you in the future? That's not what life's about!!!
People thought they could coat this issue...
...get me to say the "n" word so you think you have a reason for attacking me. You're not even supposed to attack people in prison, though they are serving their sentence.
I had a good life before this!
People find reason to attack me in public by like crossing in front of me in a funny way or rubbing their hand or making noises in a way that's annoying.
Ghost
A sponge totally jumped off the edge of the sink in the kitchen today when I was cleaning. I wasn't looking at it.
A Candy-Colored Life With Rose-Colored Glasses
Some people don't realize real problems! They don't identify it, I mean. I wonder what happens.
I just have to admit my parents participate in the world or are affected by it because of that whereas I chose to ignore it now.
I just have to admit my parents participate in the world or are affected by it because of that whereas I chose to ignore it now.
When I Mean Problems
I guess in my last post I meant trifles of misunderstandings that turn into something big and complex but never fully solved.
Stupid
Solving problems shouldn't happen at the tick marks of feeling uncomfortable and reacting.
I was gonna say something else on a slightly different topic but forget right now. Oh yea, I'm paving the way for a normal life in Central Florida.
I was gonna say something else on a slightly different topic but forget right now. Oh yea, I'm paving the way for a normal life in Central Florida.
Pretty much
my family doesn't know how to get anything done, but I obviously do. She doesn't usually say things that linger like this for a small initial reason. She thinks maybe I never got tired of her. People seem to have issues with how much she respects other people, but she is well-built, just not totally European in a way most people are, I guess. It's not even about if she's stimulating. She seems to want to separate me from the people I like who are rather iconic. I pushed her playfully because she was getting onto me, and I find that gay.
So, something little is actually turning into something pretty big.
I see lots of things about my parents that aren't as good as me, focusing more on my mom I suppose since it seems to be her idea.
Tim Burton might not be genuine to all his fans.
I don't know for sure, and I'm mad because my dad acted like he was stimulating someone in a bad way that I care about. Also, my mom has disturbed me about my current relationship|s, as well. She thinks if she says something maybe it will have to be taken care of so leaves little droppings of things if I am not being silly sorry over the "n" word thing, which has taken its toll on me.
Contagious
People are expecting you to die for them and be your slaves. Why don't we put the stamp on it?
Screaming Banshees
http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/banshee
Some people command the attention of millions. They do it on purpose, but they are allowed to not think and just react.
Do you know or ever heard of this everyday thing where people will rub in relationships in ways they shouldn't? It's like it was something special for someone else but now it's not? Some people are good with people and juggling these things somehow. They seem to have some issues. I go by some logic. Um, I don't want this to keep popping up in my personal life. Pretty much, I don't mind if someone wants attention. I don't like people who play with thoughts to make them painful and stupid. I can say what I want about them and command respect. I need to talk about things. I feel better if I post them in a blog. It kind of gets a lot of views. That way, posting online, people might venture in here and react to it when they post to me. Some people might like the lyrical background I have in style.
I do have one thing down in life and that is to try to be appealing in a European way. I'm not quite sure exactly all the reasons other people have for liking European things.
Pretty much, I can accept things, but if something goes wrong I usually end up posting about it. Maybe, I need to learn to think, again. I have problems and can't think to myself about things like this. Without writing them down. I actually used to write a lot more complexly than this. I just didn't socialize on the internet. I did assignments and wrote e-mails. I write better, now, though and perhaps more easily understood.
In ways, I don't feel safe, but I know it's not my fault and so I will R.I.P. but will not kill myself. I think the police wanted me dead. They didn't come to the scene of the crime. I heard some gunshots. They didn't do much I think when I called about something online. I feel pretty safe as I am now. I just had goals like to be a movie star! I think everyone should consider acting or modeling. Girls should consider modeling, guys acting. Some girls don't want to model. Models can become movie stars!
So, I just find that it feels funny when you're followed, but it's okay, just something to take note of I guess. I don't really ask for attention. I don't like when I do get my expected attention that it gets taken away just because to be racist or mean or something. I guess I'll just have to accept what comes my way but not do these things myself? I find that people hate me for no reason and think they can take liberty over me when feelings like that, that I can do something and you can't, shouldn't exist. I don't know where things like this came from. That's just sick. People often swoon over my parents, I know, and leave me in the brush. It's actually the opposite, people feel warm about my parents yet find me more fun. I'm simply wondering about the message. I always am open for people to get attention but not to put me down in the process, like I'm still cool.
Some people command the attention of millions. They do it on purpose, but they are allowed to not think and just react.
Do you know or ever heard of this everyday thing where people will rub in relationships in ways they shouldn't? It's like it was something special for someone else but now it's not? Some people are good with people and juggling these things somehow. They seem to have some issues. I go by some logic. Um, I don't want this to keep popping up in my personal life. Pretty much, I don't mind if someone wants attention. I don't like people who play with thoughts to make them painful and stupid. I can say what I want about them and command respect. I need to talk about things. I feel better if I post them in a blog. It kind of gets a lot of views. That way, posting online, people might venture in here and react to it when they post to me. Some people might like the lyrical background I have in style.
I do have one thing down in life and that is to try to be appealing in a European way. I'm not quite sure exactly all the reasons other people have for liking European things.
Pretty much, I can accept things, but if something goes wrong I usually end up posting about it. Maybe, I need to learn to think, again. I have problems and can't think to myself about things like this. Without writing them down. I actually used to write a lot more complexly than this. I just didn't socialize on the internet. I did assignments and wrote e-mails. I write better, now, though and perhaps more easily understood.
In ways, I don't feel safe, but I know it's not my fault and so I will R.I.P. but will not kill myself. I think the police wanted me dead. They didn't come to the scene of the crime. I heard some gunshots. They didn't do much I think when I called about something online. I feel pretty safe as I am now. I just had goals like to be a movie star! I think everyone should consider acting or modeling. Girls should consider modeling, guys acting. Some girls don't want to model. Models can become movie stars!
So, I just find that it feels funny when you're followed, but it's okay, just something to take note of I guess. I don't really ask for attention. I don't like when I do get my expected attention that it gets taken away just because to be racist or mean or something. I guess I'll just have to accept what comes my way but not do these things myself? I find that people hate me for no reason and think they can take liberty over me when feelings like that, that I can do something and you can't, shouldn't exist. I don't know where things like this came from. That's just sick. People often swoon over my parents, I know, and leave me in the brush. It's actually the opposite, people feel warm about my parents yet find me more fun. I'm simply wondering about the message. I always am open for people to get attention but not to put me down in the process, like I'm still cool.
I don't need my grandma
influencing the decisions of my parents. They are always mean to me and deny they know anything about the "n" word thing it seems. I want to get it settled in the meat. I cared about my relationship. My dad talks to my grandma every week. I wanted a break from talking to her for now. Every day for 45 minutes took its toll on her. I know who's up to no good. No one has to listen to their elders when they are adults because they aren't even supposed to live near them. My parents like airheads will go along with anything these days to punish me for something I did in the far past that was an accident or misunderstanding, while in general I'm pretty good, considered like perfect, really. They keep digging into my thoughts, but my thoughts go haywire because of the attacks on me of people reading into my mind about the "n" word. I don't want any surprises left behind by my grandma to my dad in how they treat me and what we're thinking about. I don't need to be punished to call my grandma and her not give me a break from her like this. I think she influenced my dad to make it sound like he called me a nigger and would act like it wasn't her fault and she doesn't approve of the way he did it. She thinks without being on the computer herself she can conduct what goes on in my life on the computer like 24/7. She reacts to that, and it affected how her brother spoke to me. This is not about her. It's about my mom and dad right now and me being alone on the computer, like before the "n" word thing and what came to pass|follow.
I'm always right.
Why do I need my family? I knew them living in Orlando while I was in college spelled disaster.
I'm off to catch up on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
I have 2 episodes to finish. I only just started the 1st one.
I guess
you can do the right thing without submitting to others. Just don't do anything but the right thing. Realize what's important and that you don't have to go all crazy. Like, realize yes I agree that this is this. Say, you've been a alot, through a lot to yourself, and you don't get something is all and you know you don't get it, finally.
I'm the best person in the woorld!
You know what counts.
I would never believe it's right to be mean to anyone! Oh no!
I would never believe it's right to be mean to anyone! Oh no!
If someone does something to you
like, you can defend yourself. Still, I wouldn't do anything bad unless it were to save my life, which was not this situation to me.
People are still being mean to me.
They want to get me into the sensation that called someone the "n" word on purpose, like I didn't think they wanted it. I actually thought I got clear sign from multiple sources and the person themself to do so. I mean, I think we all know people do that and that it just happens and it's not so hard in a way.
I guess that finally addresses
the concern about someone's upbringing, hoping only I don't have an excuse.
Why give me one?
I wonder if some babies are born in perfect worlds. I mean, are they perfect or are they just fortunate|lucky?
But aren't they the ones suddenly claiming
you shouldn't be with your parents, anymore?
You know, a lot of people live with their grandmother and practically with their aunts.
You know, a lot of people live with their grandmother and practically with their aunts.
Wow, the situation isn't even
an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.
Some people are not so bad and do things for reasons!
Some people are not so bad and do things for reasons!
Some people are so lost.
People have made exceptions to the rules. The truth remains the truth. Things happen for reasons.
How could it not being as bad as it could be
be okay and since when are crazy things allowed only for some people?
Some people change the rules in the process.
As though there ever were any! Some things remain unspoken for a time.
Held at Brink and Mistakes
People are crazy about what would happen to them in certain situations.
Every heard of if you like to do it at all then keep doing it?
Every heard of if you like to do it at all then keep doing it?
I guess you just can't escape
getting things right.
It's funny how maybe there isn't always a reason for everything, though, like you've done something unforgivable, even if you're sorry and it was an accident, anyway.
It's funny how maybe there isn't always a reason for everything, though, like you've done something unforgivable, even if you're sorry and it was an accident, anyway.
Why do people think
that it can't be that I'm okay, that there was a reason for everything? That's the kind of person I am. It might not be all okay in ways. The point is though that I guess that logic for some reason exists.
Sometimes, the best people go through rough times.
Like, they get sick, but they're still better off than anyone else for making the sacrifices and decisions that they did.
It's funny what makes people come to care.
People who do wrong things on a daily basis are let to go like they're worthless.
It's funny how those "smart" people aren't good enough.
I guess they don't have to get punished because their lives were different.
People are so mean and don't know what they're doing.
They're not even in the same situation, and that was the problem to begin with.
Good people are prodded
into believing that evil should exist and that they should be evil as a sacrifice to their ego, which is unnecessary and unproven.
People's Mistakes
People do not see the situation literally and just want to pick at you as though they're your mom when they really don't care about you at all.
Some people can attest to that in more ways than one they cannot be trusted.
Some people can attest to that in more ways than one they cannot be trusted.
The picture of me
is from a little after the end of the school year before I moved away from Florida.
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I changed the link:
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I changed the link:
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I'm going somewhere tomorrow around 12:30-1 P.M.
I am not sure if we're doing anything else, so I don't know when I'll be back. I could be back as early as around 3 P.M.
Elaborating and Trickery
Some people spend all their time on making things up that you did in intention in your talking.
Also, people think they can hide themselves bargaining on tricks.
Also, people think they can hide themselves bargaining on tricks.
What I Learned in New Orleans in College
etc.
I only have so much steam. Gotta use it to the best of my survival... :'(
I only have so much steam. Gotta use it to the best of my survival... :'(
I JUST laughed so hard at one poster
that I got stimulated from being stimulated. Whooh. Never had that happen. :|
I wonder if some people would like to be treated
how they treat me. They already believe in creating your own protocol.
I'm taking a break talking to my grandma.
About going back, I dunno if I wanna do Bible verses. It plays with my clear mind.
My dad might start kickboxing again.
I wonder why he waited so long. He told me on our walk after talking to his mom. We were supposed to go to the gym together, but he's getting a bike he likes better, probably, though before my parents said it was too expensive. It's funny the kickboxing is 3 times a week and he wanted to just go to the gym once a week, on Sundays. I'm glad he has these goals because he needs them.
Ghost
2012-05-28 - night - I saw a churning shadow by my dad's glasses.
Also, I put the ghosts in order from most recent.
Also, I put the ghosts in order from most recent.
Why does my grandma take liberty
over things and why did my dad listen to her and not admit it? It seeped out later.
And in his mind
he is dissing my new profile picture and acts like he didn't do anything wrong. He did just want my mom doesn't want him to like he's a toy I mean I'm a toy and he's trying to stimulate me. My mom did what she wasn't supposed to do when he left for work once and I ended up in the mental hospital for a day. He said today also I don't know where you're gonna sleep tonight if I don't take my medicine.
I don't know what my problem is.
I mean my dad's problem is. He was talking to my mom and seemed to sneer that I was the black kid on the TV, empty and not white.
Reply to a Deleted Topic
I went to college in New Orleans and lived in the area as a teenager. I know the city is very dirty. After a big hurricane there, though, it was a lot cleaner.
Only My Dad
He was the only one totally not for me calling the 1-year-old the "n" word on command to begin with. So, I should have a soft spot for him. :|
Retarded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My dad acted like saying the word "retarded" was "retarded." It's something OTHER PEOPLE DO TOO YOU IDIOT
Something That Happened
1st, it sounded like my dad called me a nigger in the noise he was making, making up for it in some way. I got mad. He yelled at me. While we were watching the movie, he acted like he was stimulating someone I care about. This was after he talked to my grandma, from the "n" word thing when he called me in to do pills with him.
I had thought that they had
that it was okay to call someone something if they called you it 1st. They symbolically did just that to me.
"Just in Case"
You know, I don't like people who live like a mold with a big mold and say they can act as good as a Vietnamese with how precious something evil is.
Anyway, I don't like that.
Just in case I use it? I shouldn't be bashed, either way! I was convinced they wanted me to use it from being bashed about my race by posters who were supposedly Tim Burton!
Anyway, I don't like that.
Just in case I use it? I shouldn't be bashed, either way! I was convinced they wanted me to use it from being bashed about my race by posters who were supposedly Tim Burton!
The Facts That Matter to People
People need to grasp that I thought someone wanted me to call them the "n" word regardless of whether they did or not, it's provable and it's publicized!
No one can be trying to teach me something...
...I already know. That situation is within the situation.
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