Wednesday, May 23, 2012
People don't believe in hairy situations.
They don't think people can make mistakes because of having too many things to handle.
I get so mad.
Instead of thinking automatically, "I'm gonna kill * ." Something went through my head I guess, "I'm gonna kill someone." I'm not gonna, but I mean that thought came to me. I don't think it was a ghost, but I also got a lot of that after-vibe. 8|
Before, the word "shoot" was weaving in and out of jumbled words.
Before, the word "shoot" was weaving in and out of jumbled words.
I figured out my problem!
People think it's funny and cute to creep up on the best person in the class or a goody 2 shoes and make them think people like to curse for fun and then have other people find out and rat on them for not being all white.
My grandma called.
She still doesn't seem to understand why I post online. She said she doesn't know why I just sit at the computer.
I mean she called and my dad answered.
I mean she called and my dad answered.
I was thinking of going out and eating.
My brother is in his room, but my dad is out. Why not wait another hour? My brother might come out in 2. If not, so what? Also, my legs are cold though I'm wearing thin pants, but my upper body isn't.
It all started...
...when my grandma got upset at me. I decided to come out into the living area because my dad came to my door. I've been avoiding that while my brother is here for 3 months so he gets time with my parents and without me around.
Good Film Actresses
I saw this white blonde who had a pretty good shape working at Disney. She seemed pretty delusional. She had like puffy webbed out fingertips. I thought they were cute but one-dimensional. I wish she would get famous. She seems so smart. It was hard to believe she stood there all day getting drinks or something. I did see her walking.
Dressing Up My Desires
Why do some people think I have funny desires when they're more disdains of fetishes?
Did you ever think about...
...people stimulating you in a funny way if you're not perfect, just because you're already a perfectionist?
I think the blonde I posted...
...was a really big fan of Ellen DeGeneres. I wonder how many big fans she has and why they don't post online. They probably have but don't now.
So...
...I missed going to the store again with my dad. I'm actually pretty skinny today, too. It must be from the side sit-ups. Maybe, it is okay to eat my family's meal. Maybe, I can alternate. They never have mashed potatos.
Breakfast
For breakfast this morning, I had pancakes and eggs. I probably usually will have grain|oat cereal. That's what I had yesterday and probably the day or so before.
I owe the library $50.
My library card expired, too, but I don't know if that's partly why. I don't think so, now.
The internet just went down.
Anyway, with the "n" word thing, since I ended up having a misunderstanding as to what was right shouldn't I get a priority or something? I'm just saying. I know, as I get better, though, that things will heal.
It is nice to get a chance to nest in my room.
My mom said we're going somewhere next week. It's just to change that they said I was a male instead of a female.
Upper Body Workout
I'm gonna get it online when ASAP my dad and I go to put money on my credit card.
"Free Thinking"
So, sometimes, there comes a time when it feels I need to say something. I regret it, usually, but I don't process it right away.
I'm concerned.
My mom has always, in a way, supported my interest in other people. It's funny, my grandma wanted me to call her every night and read a Bible reading for the past year or so. I was sorta settling in with my parents still, but now I'm getting older, fast it seems. I thought I could do both, but for some reason it feels my immediate family is torn apart. I also e-mail my aunt, and our relationship is pretty good, a little hard when my life was hard though we still kept in touch.
He never looked like me.
He didn't have that sorta hard look. Well, he did look a lot like me when I didn't like how I looked, but I like him. I try to help him out. He's pretty cunning. He's not always very expressive, anymore. It's been like that since we moved to the New Orleans suburb. :|
He was different.
He was born with pink skin, but after awhile it got white. It got light pink again when he was 2. He had like light-ish or mousy brown hair, then. I guess if I had it, it would have been neat.
My Brother
He's obviously not the same as me, and it makes people wonder. I wonder if it's because of both of my parents.
Ooh.
And even if you did use the "n" word so what? Sometimes, it keeps people from killing each other is all I've found. Sure, it's not a good idea to use it?
You know, I was set up to have a good life.
I didn't do anything wrong. Someone wanted me to call them the "n" word. Leave me alone.
I wonder why my mom throws people's lives away.
I don't like her Oriental-influenced meals, and I think my dad and brother are jealous of my private eating.
I don't know why my brother is like he is.
I mainly am wondering why she isn't following through with her goals. It's like she doesn't want me to enjoy her. Wow, the world has sure ruined my family.
I don't know why my brother is like he is.
I mainly am wondering why she isn't following through with her goals. It's like she doesn't want me to enjoy her. Wow, the world has sure ruined my family.
Funny
My brother is in the shower now. I thought he was sleeping.
My mom said she'd see me sometime but didn't. Maybe she meant another time.
My mom said she'd see me sometime but didn't. Maybe she meant another time.
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