Christina Barrett: 07/05/12

It's hard to figure out some things.

I guess I should have started a blog and perhaps posted about something else. As to when, it shouldn't matter, but it took a lot to learn the ropes online.

Out of respect

it's hard to imagine people being a certain way for me with sacrifice.

I'm not sure what I'd do for things like this.

It's just that I started getting online a bit after Tim and Helena were about to have their daughter, and when she was born I started posting about Johnny Depp.

That's a bit suggestive

to say I don't deserve to be online because celebrities are having their life.

To address the issue...

...I didn't even think I should consider the personal lives of stars and just post about their work. I thought that we were always supposed to think about feelings with other people. That's the way I was planning to live my life, at the time, and I think still it would be a proper way for me to exist, just not with certain people.

I should have been online already, end of story! I wasn't ready at the time, but I could have gotten ready sometime before. Besides, I was stuck with nothing to do and no one was even e-mailing me was why.

So, to sum it all up

I have to feel stimulated in sort of a way that's not dignified just because child stars have parents that are touchy-feely because they're rich and famous and artistic, but we don't really have a proper relationship. It's even because of them. They've affected my life in good ways but want me to pay yet don't realize how many people surround them in these issues of their functioning. They're not really that sneaky, neither, though people seem to go about and do something. I'm a bit worried because I guess maybe I cut my bangs for other reasons by now.

My dad saying "month."

He usually waits over a day if something goes wrong to recover...

He seemed more amiable after he said that. I was just thinking something, and they don't communicate with me. They try to stimulate me. I'm sad we don't have a relationship.

People are mean to me if I'm not perfect.

It's really not my fault, see.

My dad said "month" while thinking maybe I'm evil.

I just want the "n" word stuff to be over. I don't want people thinking I can't have grandkids because of when I thought about it, too. I'm not dealing with this nonsense. I'm not impressed.

Well, I know that you can tell that

I have a problem.

It seems that people want to use the curse words in thinking because after all they are just words, just have to be used in the right situations.

Something happened when I thought "not a nigger." It was a big deal. I couldn't at the time stop it from coming. So, later, the reason I thought it came up, it just hurt me a lot. Some things happen. It's like when I think someone is gay to me, though. :p At the store, I thought of the word, and the cashier just smiled, a teen or young adult boy, and we exchanged looks that we were Celtic. It was funny and made sense at the time, actually...

I've been "in the business" for awhile.

I've been sharing my talents in the arts, and I don't believe that famous people are somehow more important just because they are than others.

So, I finally got my laundry washing and ironing done.

I just have a new batch to iron when it dries tomorrow, unless I'm extra-tired, which I probably won't be, though I'm trying to get to bed earlier and have enough clothes for now...

Child Celebs

They want them to feel comfortable that their parents are such touchy feely famous icons. So, my parents act like instead of me in more esteem and emotional distance of respect and intelligence, it's something like what I don't want what it was like for these particular child celebs. Except, now my hair isn't really as light, though it looks better altogether. Another issue. I think that Helena Bonham Carter is mad I cut my bangs. I think she influenced me. She shaped her daughter's hair pin kinda like the word "n" ... I'm not pinning my bangs back!

Ever since

I thought Helena Bonham Carter sent me a message, like using body language in pictures having read me up online as I know many have, to call her daughter the "n" word and already clearly symbolically did that to me. The daughter even was in on it. I know my parents were strict with me in my early years before gaining full consciousness or whatever.

So, people acted like I wanted to do that and I guess not that I went crazy innocently or some other excuse...

So, ever since that, people have been doing things to me. It wasn't like this before. I suppose it was to be done, anyway, but it's just because of trying to make life make sense for child celebs.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, expected-ly, ruined my life.

My parents didn't treat me with feelings in the same way as before, and it's a bit humiliating the way they've reduced the esteem of our relationship.

My mom just hit the pan really loudly.

My parents are always acting as though they thought I did something wrongly.

I was telling her about my dieting from rice but eating Triscuits. I've also been having yogurt and started eating fruit, too, to attend to my hunger.

Then, I told her I found a picture that looked like the daughter of Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter who was from Spain and was Spanish probably. Helena Bonham Carter is a little Spanish and a lot Jewish on her mom's side I think. It's Jewish-European, I think, and her dad is of high class and all English. Helena is definitely very funky or whatever you should call it.

Here's the picture:

http://i1053.photobucket.com/albums/s463/CB-Photobucket/80485PCN_Spain28.jpg

Here's the Photobucket of the daughter. Go to the bottom on the folders on the side to see the most recent pictures because they don't show up at the top, now, or click for the pop-up of viewing all albums:

http://photobucket.com/NellBurton

Here's another photo of a Spanish girl:

http://i1053.photobucket.com/albums/s463/CB-Photobucket/2012-06-16-1.png

Also, here are 2 pictures of Johnny Depp and his girlfriend Vanessa Paradis:

http://i1053.photobucket.com/albums/s463/CB-Photobucket/tumblr_m6dwhfaxaJ1qfgcb9o1_1280.jpg
http://i1053.photobucket.com/albums/s463/CB-Photobucket/tumblr_m6dwhfaxaJ1qfgcb9o2_1280.jpg

They sure look good. I noticed Vanessa looks very good, me not being from Europe.

Christina Barrett

Thursday, July 5, 2012