Saturday, June 23, 2012
YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THE HELL I'M TALKING ABOUT
DON'T BLAME SOMEONE ELSE FOR SOMETHING YOU DID
GET OUT OF MY LIFE, YOU WHORES
GET OUT OF MY LIFE, YOU WHORES
So, obviously, you niggers,
you do reflect what you want. What you look like shows who you are because it's your doing on your own life. You can tell what a person does and wants, and that shouldn't compromise someone else in the relationship.
I do listen to what others say and learn.
It seems I'm being made to feel that way when I was never mean to anyone.
Why would you let someone in your life in order to
make fun of you and make you feel bad about yourself, like you're older?
You were supposed to follow through with something!
Not act like a ditz about it, but I'm sure you couldn't act any differently about what you did. Or is it really not your fault?
Some people don't even know where to focus their thoughts.
And others get upset at you for overstepping boundaries that have been made. Learn to deal with your depth. That depth must be dealt with, in the proper way. Fine, go insult someone who's done nothing wrong to you and then make them feel bad for doing what you wanted!!!
Don't get mad, you!
You can't get mad at someone for doing when you obviously wanted them to do. I'm not listening to you, anymore!!!
Pushed to Do the Wrong Thing
There are some things people think they can get into that hurt the ones we love and don't realize that you matter. Now, I have to worry about things. Well, I guess they make sense in a way. You just have to address the issue, but it really shouldn't have and couldn't have happened in the first place.
What Something Says
Someone creates what's special for you in some ways and then for some reason that mocks you takes that away. It's like it's never about you in that way... People need to stop telling me they hate me because they think I'm better. That's a crazy thought.
My life makes no sense.
I've accomplished a lot and made to feel like I'm nothing. I've been told to do crazy things. I already have a framework of what's right and wrong. I've been pushed by those I trusted to step out of certain boundaries or admired for stepping into some.
I guess things are easy for me.
People want to be on top and create crazy reasons for things and then take back what they seemed to present.
It's funny when you want to turn a good person into a bad person. You shouldn't feel you have anything against someone who actually meant no harm. I've seen people look you in the eye who've even lost a child!
It's funny when you want to turn a good person into a bad person. You shouldn't feel you have anything against someone who actually meant no harm. I've seen people look you in the eye who've even lost a child!
Maybe, I've committed something I'm unaware of.
It sure seems that way.
There are some things you can't get away with. There are some things you don't seem like you really intend to do and for the reason you weren't meant to say something.
There are some things you can't get away with. There are some things you don't seem like you really intend to do and for the reason you weren't meant to say something.
Something That Bothers Me
If someone promises you something, in how they act and what you get the drift of, if they take it back for no reason upsets me.
I mean, no reason means that you don't really have any problems, but someone choses to find fault in what you do. Things annoy people for no reason. It's hard to know what anyone wants these days. I guess they want to keep lying.
I mean, no reason means that you don't really have any problems, but someone choses to find fault in what you do. Things annoy people for no reason. It's hard to know what anyone wants these days. I guess they want to keep lying.
How Much I've Actually Practiced Singing
I dunno, I did a lot. I did a lot of piano once I got into Talented Music and did a lot when I still lived in Florida.
Um, I didn't like anyone to hear me sing, so that prohibited me from practicing more, but eventually or somehow rather I did. I know because I've done it a lot and now remember doing it for my dad. I had a lamp with 3 fixtures or whatever in different colors and would perform. I don't know how old I was, but it was probably 13 or 14 +.
I did well in singing in college, but they made it sound like I didn't because maybe I didn't do very well in the end. I took too many courses. I was unable to memorize my piano stuff because I didn't put in that extra effort. I was kinda sent home altogether and told like I can't go back to singing. It's a nice college, but I don't think the plane money would be worth it now, moving after the hurricane. We used to live by it.
Um, I didn't like anyone to hear me sing, so that prohibited me from practicing more, but eventually or somehow rather I did. I know because I've done it a lot and now remember doing it for my dad. I had a lamp with 3 fixtures or whatever in different colors and would perform. I don't know how old I was, but it was probably 13 or 14 +.
I did well in singing in college, but they made it sound like I didn't because maybe I didn't do very well in the end. I took too many courses. I was unable to memorize my piano stuff because I didn't put in that extra effort. I was kinda sent home altogether and told like I can't go back to singing. It's a nice college, but I don't think the plane money would be worth it now, moving after the hurricane. We used to live by it.
How can someone be right
if they claim to be wrong?
Like, they say that at first you can be who you want. Then, they even brush their own selves aside all in one package and relate it to you.
Like, they say that at first you can be who you want. Then, they even brush their own selves aside all in one package and relate it to you.
New Pictures and Videos of Me
I'm not sure if there's any photos in the 1st Photobucket album.
Photobucket
Photobucket
YouTube
YouTube
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Photobucket
YouTube
YouTube
New Photos of Me
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The videos are coming along the way, but no need to look forward to anything for they are just me in the bathtub. *sigh*
The videos are coming along the way, but no need to look forward to anything for they are just me in the bathtub. *sigh*
Tomorrow could be
a good day for "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" .... wait I don't think it makes a difference. *shrugs* I mean, I'll probably busy both Saturday and Sunday, so I should see it Sunday night.
Friday, June 22, 2012
This might be important.
I just realized I think my faults are because of something I did later, but I've had these flaws already.
Social Networking
I really wanted to do most everything on MySpace, but the blog doesn't have an archive.
I guess the bad thing now is I have 2 Facebooks. I probably won't use the old one, unless someone talks to me there.
I guess the bad thing now is I have 2 Facebooks. I probably won't use the old one, unless someone talks to me there.
D: How did you know?
Someone thought something to me, and I was a big aghast, as per usual. It what went through my mind when I was offended on some level, highly suggestive in ways mentally speaking.
When I'm Watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show"
I think I'm gonna watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" tonight like late. :( I want to start watching it when it comes on in the day, but it's fun watching it late at night when no one's around, too. *shrugs* :/
Thursday, June 21, 2012
I never really did anything wrong.
People think they can pick at my wanting to be perfect and my being human.
My dad doesn't understand the world.
He didn't want me to be treated for nothing but made it happen. It's my aunt's fault, but I don't know why she chimed into what was going on with me at school, which wasn't anything disobedient. :|
People can't be so affective
every time something happens. I think I know who started this nonsense.
That lady was saying
I was soo attractive and that she knows I'm smart. She wants to get me back into drama.
Stupidity
So, I drew a girl and for some reason the eyes were in a little. I don't think that's bad. It just happened. I left it that way because it looked so so good, like nothing you'd ever seen, other than the fact that the eyes were in a little. Stuff like this happens. It doesn't have to mean anything and doesn't mean anything outlandish, just that I'm gonna pay more attention to where I put the eyeballs. :p
I guess
I'm not up for that rap.
I feel a bit inhibited by others being so critical of me.
I felt good seeing the case worker.
I feel a bit inhibited by others being so critical of me.
I felt good seeing the case worker.
I can't believe I have a case worker.
My dad asked my brother to see her, like in order to meet the whole family. I think she suggested him while I sneaked out to go to the bathroom. I don't think my brother is happy about that. Also, my parents are oblivious. I got an African-American lady case worker, which is nice. She seems to really know what she's doing and is very smart about things and respects me greatly. She has some faults. She had to play with a little thing that was falling all over the table. I just got up and left in the middle of them talking. They've been talking for an hour.
My dad is quite agitated, and I bet my mom doesn't approve of that. If you don't do as they wish, they will act like you're gay or a nigger or something.
My dad is quite agitated, and I bet my mom doesn't approve of that. If you don't do as they wish, they will act like you're gay or a nigger or something.
The fact you don't want to linger on something
means you're wrong to use it to bait others, but I wasn't using it to bait others.
Something Funny..
A lot of people just make up something when they think they've overcome someone and find they're wrong and don't know what they're talking about.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
So, you might think I did something especially bad
but I did not. I did something commonly bad. I suppose, you could dig into it more and say that's not even true.
Just because I'm not perfect in my intentions
and goals therein is why people think I'm more than confused. I try to walk the path of the straight and narrow and notice people are meaner to me than others.
I already know what I'm doing.
Some people just don't get over things, with me, that don't make sense, at all.
Others's problems shouldn't affect me.
>^..^<~
A little lesson learned. If someone isn't a trouble-maker and apparently, knowingly gets confused, they don't get into trouble. When you hack at someone day in and day out or whatever in general ... that's only effective on people who do this sort of thing for a living!
A little lesson learned. If someone isn't a trouble-maker and apparently, knowingly gets confused, they don't get into trouble. When you hack at someone day in and day out or whatever in general ... that's only effective on people who do this sort of thing for a living!
Curse words don't come up with me.
So, with the people who are concerned about the controlling of it voluntarily should not even be an issue. Like, curse words keep coming up, and then after that I get picked at for reacting in my head, which I can't help but do something because it makes me uncomfortable and feel undignified.
Do you know people who
just want to see what happens? People always learn from life. A baby would never know how to talk otherwise. Adults know how to care for themselves yet still are quite human.
Why are we even discussing this?
People don't follow the "rules." People are forgetting what my life used to be like, as though I've made a wrong decision rather than fallen into a conspiracy. It might seem easy to figure out, but it's hard to admit you actually have to back down because it might not be for the right reasons. Still, it's good to know what you're doing and to back down when something's too much.
I wonder why some people
promise you you'll get attention and then something goes wrong, like say you said something that wasn't right because of what someone else said or did.
It's bad to make a mistake, but some things aren't as bad as others.
I know people who go out of their way to get at people and who I'm guessing thought they knew what they were doing. People are so easily persuaded.
It's bad to make a mistake, but some things aren't as bad as others.
I know people who go out of their way to get at people and who I'm guessing thought they knew what they were doing. People are so easily persuaded.
I guess people from every country
or of different ethnicities all have their own issues, and so do people who are very mixed, even.
People don't seem to get that you don't trust them.
I don't see why I have a big issue up in my family. I assure you my intentions are genuine.
On the topic itself, it just seems there are some things that aren't to circulate and assume that other things have backfired on me, perhaps being the issue itself since it's not really right, after all...
On the topic itself, it just seems there are some things that aren't to circulate and assume that other things have backfired on me, perhaps being the issue itself since it's not really right, after all...
Oh, no!
I've let something slip my mind. Something upset me a bit, and I reapplied that term for some reason within the bounds of current concerns. I have to remember not to do that. I hope it doesn't pop up, again. Some people are suggestive. Then, on the flip side, they're especially positive.
So, I just caught up on
Ellen that was missing from TV on Thursday and Friday because of a golf tournament, for some reason. I watched some videos online, but I think they were all relics of the past. I guess, when my family is away I will catch up on the 2 episodes now recorded on our TV.
"I can't believe you people."
I said something not saying where I got it from about settling something that bothered me, and it has stretched a month past from my birthday! It's been a big deal, and I'm the one who's getting intruded upon in "creative" ways. It keeps coming up randomly. Some people seem to have gotten over it.
A Worry
So people worry about suggestions of others for some reason and find some way to change the situation, whether or not they are conscious of it. They know some things aren't right, in certain situations.
I know I didn't mean to suggest anything bad in what I said. I don't get people who size me up to themselves because there are lots of people out there who don't do that. People seem to think that certain things must be suggested in their relationships with others and try to compromise that relationship. It seems it's always about ...
I know I didn't mean to suggest anything bad in what I said. I don't get people who size me up to themselves because there are lots of people out there who don't do that. People seem to think that certain things must be suggested in their relationships with others and try to compromise that relationship. It seems it's always about ...
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Just to Make My Dad Happy
I am taking the medicine. I will gradually get off it. It's a little every day. It's 1 1|2 mg. I was doing 4 mg a day and then 3 mg every 3 days before.
Ways of Controlling Anger
Going to the gym every day (you know, Sunday-Thursday,) and drinking tea help.
Medicine will ... too late if you need it already ... increase your appetite and slow down your metabolism.
Medicine will ... too late if you need it already ... increase your appetite and slow down your metabolism.
It seems like people want to blame others
for misunderstandings. Like, they want to make someone feel guilty for what happened.
Clear
It's clear that there's a reason made up for why I take psychiatric medicine. It's because I'm so self-confident that it would be an insult to others if I was made to feel I was the one who was right.
Coping
I suppose I'll have to cope with all this.
You know, something funny happened to me in my sleep. I hope it goes away. It wasn't too bad. I've restrained myself against it. Yea, well, actually, this has nothing to do with the original topic.
I'm also wondering if people tried to get me to mess up in life so they wouldn't have to deal with me. People have stopped talking to me. That doesn't really make me happy. I feel I want to stop talking to a lot of people. I feel bound. I think I should stop. I dunno, though. I think that there are ways people are older than me and so they ditch me. There are some people who seem younger than me, though, at least in some ways. You know, my life used to be more complicated.
You know, something funny happened to me in my sleep. I hope it goes away. It wasn't too bad. I've restrained myself against it. Yea, well, actually, this has nothing to do with the original topic.
I'm also wondering if people tried to get me to mess up in life so they wouldn't have to deal with me. People have stopped talking to me. That doesn't really make me happy. I feel I want to stop talking to a lot of people. I feel bound. I think I should stop. I dunno, though. I think that there are ways people are older than me and so they ditch me. There are some people who seem younger than me, though, at least in some ways. You know, my life used to be more complicated.
Why does something always happen to me?
It doesn't happen to others. Did Opera really change that when you Retweet a Blogger post that the window doesn't close automatically? Wow, why not just do something mean to everyone every time they get mad? Because it wouldn't be worth it? That seems to be the thinking, other than that they're the problem everyone's scared concerning to begin with. I think people need to when they're not mad learn to not get mad and that when they are they should be restrained. I notice, I never mean anything, but I get made to be mad. I'm trying to stop that. Me being made to get mad has happened too much lately.
Also, why do you think I'd feel too guilty to do things as before? Note, there are things that shouldn't be too obvious. Things really aren't the same. People just failed to cope with the "n" word thing. One thing is there is a reason and it's because I thought the other people thought it was my turn or something, even though at the time things were big on me acting right. I mean, I thought they were posting to me online every day being racist, but I didn't know who it was. They already said the son was going to be gay. The mom said the dad said the son would be gay from listening to Judy Garland. I didn't want to do this, but I think they really wanted me to, maybe some moreso than others if not just 1 or 2 people in the end. I suppose it's good to cope, but I shouldn't be punished for this. That's because it seemed like someone wanted to use the word. I feel that if I know it's wrong and not good nor cool to do anyway that I'd remember. It is mean and not smart to think you should do it even if someone thinks it's okay.
Also, why do you think I'd feel too guilty to do things as before? Note, there are things that shouldn't be too obvious. Things really aren't the same. People just failed to cope with the "n" word thing. One thing is there is a reason and it's because I thought the other people thought it was my turn or something, even though at the time things were big on me acting right. I mean, I thought they were posting to me online every day being racist, but I didn't know who it was. They already said the son was going to be gay. The mom said the dad said the son would be gay from listening to Judy Garland. I didn't want to do this, but I think they really wanted me to, maybe some moreso than others if not just 1 or 2 people in the end. I suppose it's good to cope, but I shouldn't be punished for this. That's because it seemed like someone wanted to use the word. I feel that if I know it's wrong and not good nor cool to do anyway that I'd remember. It is mean and not smart to think you should do it even if someone thinks it's okay.
I suppose later
they don't have to feel themselves be nice to others because they want to just rub in that they're guilty for what they've done though it was a misunderstanding and you thought that's what someone wanted, something no one will understand nor realize that is a problem because of racism. Things probably wouldn't be so bad, otherwise. People need respect racially, but they're not good at keeping a balance with that and reality.
I imagine
some people are trying to get by or should be let be. It's too bad the circumstances are as they are. People though pay later when they chose not to react initially and don't know how that can be taken into consideration.
Well
things have gotten both better and worse, for some reason. Rumor must have spread, but things were going well before. Just because I felt at the time to say something about what happened, things had changed. Perhaps, it wasn't quite the right thing ... lemme see ... well, it was pretty basic. It was about something probably in a way that was more about how you would think of it more boiled down to what you would think as a reaction rather than refined.
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