Obviously

what's been accomplished is that they're also affecting other people when they affect me, and my grandma did that, as well.

So, also, my aunt doesn't seem to like long e-mails from me.  I made some incredibly short ones in the past, but this time I spoke a little more partly or mainly since I was onto something.

I don't feel the secret messages I'm getting from my dad are worth it, basically, nor so good.  He seemed sensitive about my relationship with my mom, as well, in the past.  I don't like how the "n" word thing has affected my life, at all.