I'm tired of

being looked at as a lunatic.

 I'm tired of getting messages of being punished just because someone made me think they wanted me to call them the "n" word.  Even if they didn't do it on purpose, which I'm sure this was all on purpose.  I don't know that they knew what I'd do, but they seemed to try to knock me out that it's so important to see what would happen about this person I called the "n" word online that they would sacrifice my dignity and then claim it never happened like that.  I know I thought about this earlier, but I didn't because I knew they could call me it back, but the messages didn't stop and they really wanted it.  Now, other people are against me.