What happens when the dust clears

and you realize you've managed to humiliate someone?

You realize that they didn't do anything wrong, like repeatedly or whatever ... they might have done some things wrong but aren't ultimately bad.

I do try to keep respect, but I fear that people think I should like torture myself or act perverted because I as a person don't like being perverted, as though that were some kind of appropriate punishment for what I did.

Sometimes, I do get upset, but I actually try to keep that down.  I just feel a bit hurt about being insulted racially.