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Did you ever get yourself really upset

and end up giving clues?  D:  I guess there's no reason|sense in being upset.  I guess I just blew up and got over my anger.  |:  That's good that it shouldn't happen again.

I just asked him a question

about bringing something up initially.

So, I was hoping

my dad would fix the fact that he got something stuck in my head.  He just likes to make me feel guilty all the time because of the stupid "n" word thing.

I realized

not to get upset at someone saying something I might remember because everyone does that.  Also, people seem to fade it in their memory with other things.  I did not know that.

I noticed

no one ever talks about how they feel.

Like, I feel like I'm surrounded by this feeling or something.

Back to Basics

I'm not sure what that is, but it seems people can say something is a certain way from the most base thinking possible, which is a good thing to be able to rehash.

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Importance of What You Do

It's a signal for people to communicate.

It's originally what's at stake because people can't control everything you do if you're on the platform.

Why respect people out of fear?

Why not be good to the good guys?

Some people

find something wrong with everything you do.

I don't like my life to be dug into.

I miss when I was respected.

It's just that things have changed so much for me.

I didn't know I was hurting my brother

until a pause after closing the door, but he seemed to feel pretty bad.  I suppose he's not that bad, though our relationship can get out of hand.

What about thinking "Well, at least I did it..."

when you are trying to do something good but want it to also mean a punishment?  Sometimes, it goes the other way around.

I don't see anything about me that needs punishment.  The "n" word thing is already highly overstated and wasn't even my idea, don't think it's the coolest thing you could do, nor that it's okay.

I got mad

at my dad for treating him better, a bit much, after talking to my grandma.

I think I hurt my brother.

I was really stimulated and closed the car door in a way that probably hurt his feelings.

People seem to think nothing matters.

I thought we had reached a certain level.

You know

people do things by accident when they are mad.

Also, there are ways to do something wrong to someone in a certain situation.  I can't think of anyone who's not really worth anything, worth keeping alive.

Goals

It took a long time for me to get it, but it seems that people are happy about my situation and know I'll never have things the way they should be.  That's a bit suggestive.

So, you'll want to get good at

shrugging off things and assuming they're not going to be your fault.

I was going to say something else, too, but forgot.

D: Priceless

I don't know what could be suggested from words, but I know that words don't describe anything and didn't mean certain things in certain ways.  On different levels, I suppose I should care for my actions.  I realized there are some things I can't do.  I don't know, though, if I should do them.  :|