I'm not sure if there's any photos in the 1st Photobucket album.
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Saturday, June 23, 2012
New Photos of Me
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The videos are coming along the way, but no need to look forward to anything for they are just me in the bathtub. *sigh*
The videos are coming along the way, but no need to look forward to anything for they are just me in the bathtub. *sigh*
Tomorrow could be
a good day for "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" .... wait I don't think it makes a difference. *shrugs* I mean, I'll probably busy both Saturday and Sunday, so I should see it Sunday night.
Friday, June 22, 2012
This might be important.
I just realized I think my faults are because of something I did later, but I've had these flaws already.
Social Networking
I really wanted to do most everything on MySpace, but the blog doesn't have an archive.
I guess the bad thing now is I have 2 Facebooks. I probably won't use the old one, unless someone talks to me there.
I guess the bad thing now is I have 2 Facebooks. I probably won't use the old one, unless someone talks to me there.
D: How did you know?
Someone thought something to me, and I was a big aghast, as per usual. It what went through my mind when I was offended on some level, highly suggestive in ways mentally speaking.
When I'm Watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show"
I think I'm gonna watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" tonight like late. :( I want to start watching it when it comes on in the day, but it's fun watching it late at night when no one's around, too. *shrugs* :/
Thursday, June 21, 2012
I never really did anything wrong.
People think they can pick at my wanting to be perfect and my being human.
My dad doesn't understand the world.
He didn't want me to be treated for nothing but made it happen. It's my aunt's fault, but I don't know why she chimed into what was going on with me at school, which wasn't anything disobedient. :|
People can't be so affective
every time something happens. I think I know who started this nonsense.
That lady was saying
I was soo attractive and that she knows I'm smart. She wants to get me back into drama.
Stupidity
So, I drew a girl and for some reason the eyes were in a little. I don't think that's bad. It just happened. I left it that way because it looked so so good, like nothing you'd ever seen, other than the fact that the eyes were in a little. Stuff like this happens. It doesn't have to mean anything and doesn't mean anything outlandish, just that I'm gonna pay more attention to where I put the eyeballs. :p
I guess
I'm not up for that rap.
I feel a bit inhibited by others being so critical of me.
I felt good seeing the case worker.
I feel a bit inhibited by others being so critical of me.
I felt good seeing the case worker.
I can't believe I have a case worker.
My dad asked my brother to see her, like in order to meet the whole family. I think she suggested him while I sneaked out to go to the bathroom. I don't think my brother is happy about that. Also, my parents are oblivious. I got an African-American lady case worker, which is nice. She seems to really know what she's doing and is very smart about things and respects me greatly. She has some faults. She had to play with a little thing that was falling all over the table. I just got up and left in the middle of them talking. They've been talking for an hour.
My dad is quite agitated, and I bet my mom doesn't approve of that. If you don't do as they wish, they will act like you're gay or a nigger or something.
My dad is quite agitated, and I bet my mom doesn't approve of that. If you don't do as they wish, they will act like you're gay or a nigger or something.
The fact you don't want to linger on something
means you're wrong to use it to bait others, but I wasn't using it to bait others.
Something Funny..
A lot of people just make up something when they think they've overcome someone and find they're wrong and don't know what they're talking about.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
So, you might think I did something especially bad
but I did not. I did something commonly bad. I suppose, you could dig into it more and say that's not even true.
Just because I'm not perfect in my intentions
and goals therein is why people think I'm more than confused. I try to walk the path of the straight and narrow and notice people are meaner to me than others.
I already know what I'm doing.
Some people just don't get over things, with me, that don't make sense, at all.
Others's problems shouldn't affect me.
>^..^<~
A little lesson learned. If someone isn't a trouble-maker and apparently, knowingly gets confused, they don't get into trouble. When you hack at someone day in and day out or whatever in general ... that's only effective on people who do this sort of thing for a living!
A little lesson learned. If someone isn't a trouble-maker and apparently, knowingly gets confused, they don't get into trouble. When you hack at someone day in and day out or whatever in general ... that's only effective on people who do this sort of thing for a living!
Curse words don't come up with me.
So, with the people who are concerned about the controlling of it voluntarily should not even be an issue. Like, curse words keep coming up, and then after that I get picked at for reacting in my head, which I can't help but do something because it makes me uncomfortable and feel undignified.
Do you know people who
just want to see what happens? People always learn from life. A baby would never know how to talk otherwise. Adults know how to care for themselves yet still are quite human.
Why are we even discussing this?
People don't follow the "rules." People are forgetting what my life used to be like, as though I've made a wrong decision rather than fallen into a conspiracy. It might seem easy to figure out, but it's hard to admit you actually have to back down because it might not be for the right reasons. Still, it's good to know what you're doing and to back down when something's too much.
I wonder why some people
promise you you'll get attention and then something goes wrong, like say you said something that wasn't right because of what someone else said or did.
It's bad to make a mistake, but some things aren't as bad as others.
I know people who go out of their way to get at people and who I'm guessing thought they knew what they were doing. People are so easily persuaded.
It's bad to make a mistake, but some things aren't as bad as others.
I know people who go out of their way to get at people and who I'm guessing thought they knew what they were doing. People are so easily persuaded.
I guess people from every country
or of different ethnicities all have their own issues, and so do people who are very mixed, even.
People don't seem to get that you don't trust them.
I don't see why I have a big issue up in my family. I assure you my intentions are genuine.
On the topic itself, it just seems there are some things that aren't to circulate and assume that other things have backfired on me, perhaps being the issue itself since it's not really right, after all...
On the topic itself, it just seems there are some things that aren't to circulate and assume that other things have backfired on me, perhaps being the issue itself since it's not really right, after all...
Oh, no!
I've let something slip my mind. Something upset me a bit, and I reapplied that term for some reason within the bounds of current concerns. I have to remember not to do that. I hope it doesn't pop up, again. Some people are suggestive. Then, on the flip side, they're especially positive.
So, I just caught up on
Ellen that was missing from TV on Thursday and Friday because of a golf tournament, for some reason. I watched some videos online, but I think they were all relics of the past. I guess, when my family is away I will catch up on the 2 episodes now recorded on our TV.
"I can't believe you people."
I said something not saying where I got it from about settling something that bothered me, and it has stretched a month past from my birthday! It's been a big deal, and I'm the one who's getting intruded upon in "creative" ways. It keeps coming up randomly. Some people seem to have gotten over it.
A Worry
So people worry about suggestions of others for some reason and find some way to change the situation, whether or not they are conscious of it. They know some things aren't right, in certain situations.
I know I didn't mean to suggest anything bad in what I said. I don't get people who size me up to themselves because there are lots of people out there who don't do that. People seem to think that certain things must be suggested in their relationships with others and try to compromise that relationship. It seems it's always about ...
I know I didn't mean to suggest anything bad in what I said. I don't get people who size me up to themselves because there are lots of people out there who don't do that. People seem to think that certain things must be suggested in their relationships with others and try to compromise that relationship. It seems it's always about ...
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Just to Make My Dad Happy
I am taking the medicine. I will gradually get off it. It's a little every day. It's 1 1|2 mg. I was doing 4 mg a day and then 3 mg every 3 days before.
Ways of Controlling Anger
Going to the gym every day (you know, Sunday-Thursday,) and drinking tea help.
Medicine will ... too late if you need it already ... increase your appetite and slow down your metabolism.
Medicine will ... too late if you need it already ... increase your appetite and slow down your metabolism.
It seems like people want to blame others
for misunderstandings. Like, they want to make someone feel guilty for what happened.
Clear
It's clear that there's a reason made up for why I take psychiatric medicine. It's because I'm so self-confident that it would be an insult to others if I was made to feel I was the one who was right.
Coping
I suppose I'll have to cope with all this.
You know, something funny happened to me in my sleep. I hope it goes away. It wasn't too bad. I've restrained myself against it. Yea, well, actually, this has nothing to do with the original topic.
I'm also wondering if people tried to get me to mess up in life so they wouldn't have to deal with me. People have stopped talking to me. That doesn't really make me happy. I feel I want to stop talking to a lot of people. I feel bound. I think I should stop. I dunno, though. I think that there are ways people are older than me and so they ditch me. There are some people who seem younger than me, though, at least in some ways. You know, my life used to be more complicated.
You know, something funny happened to me in my sleep. I hope it goes away. It wasn't too bad. I've restrained myself against it. Yea, well, actually, this has nothing to do with the original topic.
I'm also wondering if people tried to get me to mess up in life so they wouldn't have to deal with me. People have stopped talking to me. That doesn't really make me happy. I feel I want to stop talking to a lot of people. I feel bound. I think I should stop. I dunno, though. I think that there are ways people are older than me and so they ditch me. There are some people who seem younger than me, though, at least in some ways. You know, my life used to be more complicated.
Why does something always happen to me?
It doesn't happen to others. Did Opera really change that when you Retweet a Blogger post that the window doesn't close automatically? Wow, why not just do something mean to everyone every time they get mad? Because it wouldn't be worth it? That seems to be the thinking, other than that they're the problem everyone's scared concerning to begin with. I think people need to when they're not mad learn to not get mad and that when they are they should be restrained. I notice, I never mean anything, but I get made to be mad. I'm trying to stop that. Me being made to get mad has happened too much lately.
Also, why do you think I'd feel too guilty to do things as before? Note, there are things that shouldn't be too obvious. Things really aren't the same. People just failed to cope with the "n" word thing. One thing is there is a reason and it's because I thought the other people thought it was my turn or something, even though at the time things were big on me acting right. I mean, I thought they were posting to me online every day being racist, but I didn't know who it was. They already said the son was going to be gay. The mom said the dad said the son would be gay from listening to Judy Garland. I didn't want to do this, but I think they really wanted me to, maybe some moreso than others if not just 1 or 2 people in the end. I suppose it's good to cope, but I shouldn't be punished for this. That's because it seemed like someone wanted to use the word. I feel that if I know it's wrong and not good nor cool to do anyway that I'd remember. It is mean and not smart to think you should do it even if someone thinks it's okay.
Also, why do you think I'd feel too guilty to do things as before? Note, there are things that shouldn't be too obvious. Things really aren't the same. People just failed to cope with the "n" word thing. One thing is there is a reason and it's because I thought the other people thought it was my turn or something, even though at the time things were big on me acting right. I mean, I thought they were posting to me online every day being racist, but I didn't know who it was. They already said the son was going to be gay. The mom said the dad said the son would be gay from listening to Judy Garland. I didn't want to do this, but I think they really wanted me to, maybe some moreso than others if not just 1 or 2 people in the end. I suppose it's good to cope, but I shouldn't be punished for this. That's because it seemed like someone wanted to use the word. I feel that if I know it's wrong and not good nor cool to do anyway that I'd remember. It is mean and not smart to think you should do it even if someone thinks it's okay.
I suppose later
they don't have to feel themselves be nice to others because they want to just rub in that they're guilty for what they've done though it was a misunderstanding and you thought that's what someone wanted, something no one will understand nor realize that is a problem because of racism. Things probably wouldn't be so bad, otherwise. People need respect racially, but they're not good at keeping a balance with that and reality.
I imagine
some people are trying to get by or should be let be. It's too bad the circumstances are as they are. People though pay later when they chose not to react initially and don't know how that can be taken into consideration.
Well
things have gotten both better and worse, for some reason. Rumor must have spread, but things were going well before. Just because I felt at the time to say something about what happened, things had changed. Perhaps, it wasn't quite the right thing ... lemme see ... well, it was pretty basic. It was about something probably in a way that was more about how you would think of it more boiled down to what you would think as a reaction rather than refined.
So, the President
really is a lot like everyone else. It should do no harm in saying. Lots of people talk about him. I wanted to try keeping up with things more. It's funny, though, how sometimes you meet people who are different, but overall maybe some people are more easygoing with the truth.
People need to stop picking on me.
They don't know why they do it.
I know the people in public have problems with me, and they seem to have an inflated ego... Like, in relation to their finding fault in me. People don't realize that things could have been better in a controlled environment. What do you think will happen to these people who have willed this for me? Do they literally get by finding fault in me? Why don't people see the big picture? Somehow, my life has been ruined. I look different. I have different customs.
I know the people in public have problems with me, and they seem to have an inflated ego... Like, in relation to their finding fault in me. People don't realize that things could have been better in a controlled environment. What do you think will happen to these people who have willed this for me? Do they literally get by finding fault in me? Why don't people see the big picture? Somehow, my life has been ruined. I look different. I have different customs.
My Life's Cycle
I wish things were going better. They got bad since the "n" word thing. It kinda got bad when I was mad at racists and threw my laptop against the wall. I didn't even get an Apple, the laptop being broken a lot, anyway. I went out a little after that. After the mental hospital, I went out a lot. I looked okay right when I got back from the interaction but later not.
I can't find it in me
to do "what" people want sometimes, for me to act silly and submissive. I thought that was something you weren't supposed to do, but people use it anyway as an expectation so they can get mad at you otherwise, also claiming that's not what they want.
The Ride
So...people think just because they're older they know ways of disciplining younger people. There's always something that's a bit off-kilter. Like, I notice some people who have Irish don't do things in the same way. They think of something else, though, for some reason or maybe can't help it.
Mixed Irish People
Something goes wrong, and they think they can take liberty and say something stimulating in a bad way. Like, they refer to something else, and they think of things that shouldn't be thought of and relay the message to me and others. I can look at it in another way, like that I don't really like it. Hm...when things like that happen, usually, people do something else to make sure it bothers me but may realize I can look at anything in a different way and that they'd be out to do something that didn't mean anything that made sense nor that wasn't okay in the end. I'm like a virus learning to overcome immunity.
Did you realize
ever since the "n" word thing people have been treating me the way they treat other people, in ways that aren't appropriate? People used to do that to people when they got out of hand, but with me it happens at random.
I also told my dad
the medicine can make you twitch even after you've stopped taking it. Clearly, I was misdiagnosed. There was a Chinese doctor at the mental hospital who seemed to think I didn't need the medicine the 2nd time I went there, but since I went there a 2nd time after getting off my medicine my dad wanted me back on the medicine.
I might
use my money to help pay to take ice skating or tennis instead of getting a Nook nor online books.
The Gym and Hard Breathing
So, I dreamt of my great aunt who died and my grandma. I was on the moon, and my grandma was there. I stopped breathing sometimes.
So, I read online that the psychiatric medicine I'm taking kills you and can cause hard breathing. If it does, it says to stop taking it immediately and to seek help...
So, I broke the news to my dad, sent an e-mail.
I said, instead, let's go to this nice gym every day.
So, I read online that the psychiatric medicine I'm taking kills you and can cause hard breathing. If it does, it says to stop taking it immediately and to seek help...
So, I broke the news to my dad, sent an e-mail.
I said, instead, let's go to this nice gym every day.
:) Ah! ~:)
I was reclining on my couch.
I might go iron now.
I do want to listen to Believe more, but I should probably settle all corners of my life. I'll be back, unless I fall asleep. :|
I might go iron now.
I do want to listen to Believe more, but I should probably settle all corners of my life. I'll be back, unless I fall asleep. :|
Did you know I can't really feel anything?
I've had parts of me stimulated. Not much, though, and it's just a tingly feeling now.
Aw, Twitter's not working.
0: I'm tired but don't feel like sleeping. I did take my pills. I'm wondering if I'll wake up.
Even if you knew something was wrong
there are certain things that don't deserve certain things, but I suppose there's a reason for anything.
1st Time!
I had a natural cut on the palm of a hand. My skin split open in direction of the thin lines side to side but not on a big line.
So, some people
pretend that certain protocols didn't exist.
It's best to do what's safe, but I don't know how to cross the bridge to being more "friendly," you know, like as in casual. It seemed like it was important. I think it works if you do it on purpose and not by convenience ... nor necessity.
It's best to do what's safe, but I don't know how to cross the bridge to being more "friendly," you know, like as in casual. It seemed like it was important. I think it works if you do it on purpose and not by convenience ... nor necessity.
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