>^..^<~
A little lesson learned. If someone isn't a trouble-maker and apparently, knowingly gets confused, they don't get into trouble. When you hack at someone day in and day out or whatever in general ... that's only effective on people who do this sort of thing for a living!
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Curse words don't come up with me.
So, with the people who are concerned about the controlling of it voluntarily should not even be an issue. Like, curse words keep coming up, and then after that I get picked at for reacting in my head, which I can't help but do something because it makes me uncomfortable and feel undignified.
Do you know people who
just want to see what happens? People always learn from life. A baby would never know how to talk otherwise. Adults know how to care for themselves yet still are quite human.
Why are we even discussing this?
People don't follow the "rules." People are forgetting what my life used to be like, as though I've made a wrong decision rather than fallen into a conspiracy. It might seem easy to figure out, but it's hard to admit you actually have to back down because it might not be for the right reasons. Still, it's good to know what you're doing and to back down when something's too much.
I wonder why some people
promise you you'll get attention and then something goes wrong, like say you said something that wasn't right because of what someone else said or did.
It's bad to make a mistake, but some things aren't as bad as others.
I know people who go out of their way to get at people and who I'm guessing thought they knew what they were doing. People are so easily persuaded.
It's bad to make a mistake, but some things aren't as bad as others.
I know people who go out of their way to get at people and who I'm guessing thought they knew what they were doing. People are so easily persuaded.
I guess people from every country
or of different ethnicities all have their own issues, and so do people who are very mixed, even.
People don't seem to get that you don't trust them.
I don't see why I have a big issue up in my family. I assure you my intentions are genuine.
On the topic itself, it just seems there are some things that aren't to circulate and assume that other things have backfired on me, perhaps being the issue itself since it's not really right, after all...
On the topic itself, it just seems there are some things that aren't to circulate and assume that other things have backfired on me, perhaps being the issue itself since it's not really right, after all...
Oh, no!
I've let something slip my mind. Something upset me a bit, and I reapplied that term for some reason within the bounds of current concerns. I have to remember not to do that. I hope it doesn't pop up, again. Some people are suggestive. Then, on the flip side, they're especially positive.
So, I just caught up on
Ellen that was missing from TV on Thursday and Friday because of a golf tournament, for some reason. I watched some videos online, but I think they were all relics of the past. I guess, when my family is away I will catch up on the 2 episodes now recorded on our TV.
"I can't believe you people."
I said something not saying where I got it from about settling something that bothered me, and it has stretched a month past from my birthday! It's been a big deal, and I'm the one who's getting intruded upon in "creative" ways. It keeps coming up randomly. Some people seem to have gotten over it.
A Worry
So people worry about suggestions of others for some reason and find some way to change the situation, whether or not they are conscious of it. They know some things aren't right, in certain situations.
I know I didn't mean to suggest anything bad in what I said. I don't get people who size me up to themselves because there are lots of people out there who don't do that. People seem to think that certain things must be suggested in their relationships with others and try to compromise that relationship. It seems it's always about ...
I know I didn't mean to suggest anything bad in what I said. I don't get people who size me up to themselves because there are lots of people out there who don't do that. People seem to think that certain things must be suggested in their relationships with others and try to compromise that relationship. It seems it's always about ...
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Just to Make My Dad Happy
I am taking the medicine. I will gradually get off it. It's a little every day. It's 1 1|2 mg. I was doing 4 mg a day and then 3 mg every 3 days before.
Ways of Controlling Anger
Going to the gym every day (you know, Sunday-Thursday,) and drinking tea help.
Medicine will ... too late if you need it already ... increase your appetite and slow down your metabolism.
Medicine will ... too late if you need it already ... increase your appetite and slow down your metabolism.
It seems like people want to blame others
for misunderstandings. Like, they want to make someone feel guilty for what happened.
Clear
It's clear that there's a reason made up for why I take psychiatric medicine. It's because I'm so self-confident that it would be an insult to others if I was made to feel I was the one who was right.
Coping
I suppose I'll have to cope with all this.
You know, something funny happened to me in my sleep. I hope it goes away. It wasn't too bad. I've restrained myself against it. Yea, well, actually, this has nothing to do with the original topic.
I'm also wondering if people tried to get me to mess up in life so they wouldn't have to deal with me. People have stopped talking to me. That doesn't really make me happy. I feel I want to stop talking to a lot of people. I feel bound. I think I should stop. I dunno, though. I think that there are ways people are older than me and so they ditch me. There are some people who seem younger than me, though, at least in some ways. You know, my life used to be more complicated.
You know, something funny happened to me in my sleep. I hope it goes away. It wasn't too bad. I've restrained myself against it. Yea, well, actually, this has nothing to do with the original topic.
I'm also wondering if people tried to get me to mess up in life so they wouldn't have to deal with me. People have stopped talking to me. That doesn't really make me happy. I feel I want to stop talking to a lot of people. I feel bound. I think I should stop. I dunno, though. I think that there are ways people are older than me and so they ditch me. There are some people who seem younger than me, though, at least in some ways. You know, my life used to be more complicated.
Why does something always happen to me?
It doesn't happen to others. Did Opera really change that when you Retweet a Blogger post that the window doesn't close automatically? Wow, why not just do something mean to everyone every time they get mad? Because it wouldn't be worth it? That seems to be the thinking, other than that they're the problem everyone's scared concerning to begin with. I think people need to when they're not mad learn to not get mad and that when they are they should be restrained. I notice, I never mean anything, but I get made to be mad. I'm trying to stop that. Me being made to get mad has happened too much lately.
Also, why do you think I'd feel too guilty to do things as before? Note, there are things that shouldn't be too obvious. Things really aren't the same. People just failed to cope with the "n" word thing. One thing is there is a reason and it's because I thought the other people thought it was my turn or something, even though at the time things were big on me acting right. I mean, I thought they were posting to me online every day being racist, but I didn't know who it was. They already said the son was going to be gay. The mom said the dad said the son would be gay from listening to Judy Garland. I didn't want to do this, but I think they really wanted me to, maybe some moreso than others if not just 1 or 2 people in the end. I suppose it's good to cope, but I shouldn't be punished for this. That's because it seemed like someone wanted to use the word. I feel that if I know it's wrong and not good nor cool to do anyway that I'd remember. It is mean and not smart to think you should do it even if someone thinks it's okay.
Also, why do you think I'd feel too guilty to do things as before? Note, there are things that shouldn't be too obvious. Things really aren't the same. People just failed to cope with the "n" word thing. One thing is there is a reason and it's because I thought the other people thought it was my turn or something, even though at the time things were big on me acting right. I mean, I thought they were posting to me online every day being racist, but I didn't know who it was. They already said the son was going to be gay. The mom said the dad said the son would be gay from listening to Judy Garland. I didn't want to do this, but I think they really wanted me to, maybe some moreso than others if not just 1 or 2 people in the end. I suppose it's good to cope, but I shouldn't be punished for this. That's because it seemed like someone wanted to use the word. I feel that if I know it's wrong and not good nor cool to do anyway that I'd remember. It is mean and not smart to think you should do it even if someone thinks it's okay.
I suppose later
they don't have to feel themselves be nice to others because they want to just rub in that they're guilty for what they've done though it was a misunderstanding and you thought that's what someone wanted, something no one will understand nor realize that is a problem because of racism. Things probably wouldn't be so bad, otherwise. People need respect racially, but they're not good at keeping a balance with that and reality.
I imagine
some people are trying to get by or should be let be. It's too bad the circumstances are as they are. People though pay later when they chose not to react initially and don't know how that can be taken into consideration.
Well
things have gotten both better and worse, for some reason. Rumor must have spread, but things were going well before. Just because I felt at the time to say something about what happened, things had changed. Perhaps, it wasn't quite the right thing ... lemme see ... well, it was pretty basic. It was about something probably in a way that was more about how you would think of it more boiled down to what you would think as a reaction rather than refined.
So, the President
really is a lot like everyone else. It should do no harm in saying. Lots of people talk about him. I wanted to try keeping up with things more. It's funny, though, how sometimes you meet people who are different, but overall maybe some people are more easygoing with the truth.
People need to stop picking on me.
They don't know why they do it.
I know the people in public have problems with me, and they seem to have an inflated ego... Like, in relation to their finding fault in me. People don't realize that things could have been better in a controlled environment. What do you think will happen to these people who have willed this for me? Do they literally get by finding fault in me? Why don't people see the big picture? Somehow, my life has been ruined. I look different. I have different customs.
I know the people in public have problems with me, and they seem to have an inflated ego... Like, in relation to their finding fault in me. People don't realize that things could have been better in a controlled environment. What do you think will happen to these people who have willed this for me? Do they literally get by finding fault in me? Why don't people see the big picture? Somehow, my life has been ruined. I look different. I have different customs.
My Life's Cycle
I wish things were going better. They got bad since the "n" word thing. It kinda got bad when I was mad at racists and threw my laptop against the wall. I didn't even get an Apple, the laptop being broken a lot, anyway. I went out a little after that. After the mental hospital, I went out a lot. I looked okay right when I got back from the interaction but later not.
I can't find it in me
to do "what" people want sometimes, for me to act silly and submissive. I thought that was something you weren't supposed to do, but people use it anyway as an expectation so they can get mad at you otherwise, also claiming that's not what they want.
The Ride
So...people think just because they're older they know ways of disciplining younger people. There's always something that's a bit off-kilter. Like, I notice some people who have Irish don't do things in the same way. They think of something else, though, for some reason or maybe can't help it.
Mixed Irish People
Something goes wrong, and they think they can take liberty and say something stimulating in a bad way. Like, they refer to something else, and they think of things that shouldn't be thought of and relay the message to me and others. I can look at it in another way, like that I don't really like it. Hm...when things like that happen, usually, people do something else to make sure it bothers me but may realize I can look at anything in a different way and that they'd be out to do something that didn't mean anything that made sense nor that wasn't okay in the end. I'm like a virus learning to overcome immunity.
Did you realize
ever since the "n" word thing people have been treating me the way they treat other people, in ways that aren't appropriate? People used to do that to people when they got out of hand, but with me it happens at random.
I also told my dad
the medicine can make you twitch even after you've stopped taking it. Clearly, I was misdiagnosed. There was a Chinese doctor at the mental hospital who seemed to think I didn't need the medicine the 2nd time I went there, but since I went there a 2nd time after getting off my medicine my dad wanted me back on the medicine.
I might
use my money to help pay to take ice skating or tennis instead of getting a Nook nor online books.
The Gym and Hard Breathing
So, I dreamt of my great aunt who died and my grandma. I was on the moon, and my grandma was there. I stopped breathing sometimes.
So, I read online that the psychiatric medicine I'm taking kills you and can cause hard breathing. If it does, it says to stop taking it immediately and to seek help...
So, I broke the news to my dad, sent an e-mail.
I said, instead, let's go to this nice gym every day.
So, I read online that the psychiatric medicine I'm taking kills you and can cause hard breathing. If it does, it says to stop taking it immediately and to seek help...
So, I broke the news to my dad, sent an e-mail.
I said, instead, let's go to this nice gym every day.
:) Ah! ~:)
I was reclining on my couch.
I might go iron now.
I do want to listen to Believe more, but I should probably settle all corners of my life. I'll be back, unless I fall asleep. :|
I might go iron now.
I do want to listen to Believe more, but I should probably settle all corners of my life. I'll be back, unless I fall asleep. :|
Did you know I can't really feel anything?
I've had parts of me stimulated. Not much, though, and it's just a tingly feeling now.
Aw, Twitter's not working.
0: I'm tired but don't feel like sleeping. I did take my pills. I'm wondering if I'll wake up.
Even if you knew something was wrong
there are certain things that don't deserve certain things, but I suppose there's a reason for anything.
1st Time!
I had a natural cut on the palm of a hand. My skin split open in direction of the thin lines side to side but not on a big line.
So, some people
pretend that certain protocols didn't exist.
It's best to do what's safe, but I don't know how to cross the bridge to being more "friendly," you know, like as in casual. It seemed like it was important. I think it works if you do it on purpose and not by convenience ... nor necessity.
It's best to do what's safe, but I don't know how to cross the bridge to being more "friendly," you know, like as in casual. It seemed like it was important. I think it works if you do it on purpose and not by convenience ... nor necessity.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Let's see.
I'm starving and have a frozen pizza I'm about to eat. :p
I have laundry. That should about do it. I suppose, I could do Twitter after that. I have to catch up on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," too, so I might watch what's online of when the golf tournament was on.
I have laundry. That should about do it. I suppose, I could do Twitter after that. I have to catch up on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," too, so I might watch what's online of when the golf tournament was on.
Rough Day
I might do Twitter a bit later if not tomorrow. :|
I'll post about Justin Bieber's CD on Blogger, at least. Album. :)
I'll post about Justin Bieber's CD on Blogger, at least. Album. :)
Excuses Excuses
Trying to follow others's logic. Then, they make the excuse that things have to go downhill anyway or else they will feel like something needs to happen.
Ad Libbing
I just didn't do anything, but people want to pick at what wasn't supposed to be picked at when things were tossed up, in a pretty friendly way...
Things are going hunky-dory, and I have a feeling things are being hashed.
It was the other way around with people before. Certain people wanted life for me to be crude, and others wanted it to be fluff. They get through to what they're through to.
I have a feeling this is going back to that time I got upset that something was lodged in my memory, but you can always think of it in relation to something else. I think things are really catching on.
You know, there are some things I don't remember doing.
Things are going hunky-dory, and I have a feeling things are being hashed.
It was the other way around with people before. Certain people wanted life for me to be crude, and others wanted it to be fluff. They get through to what they're through to.
I have a feeling this is going back to that time I got upset that something was lodged in my memory, but you can always think of it in relation to something else. I think things are really catching on.
You know, there are some things I don't remember doing.
I thought Irish people were cool.
I thought they were kinda like the English.
They seem kinda gifted.
I'm thinking, though, that Irish is pretty straightforward.
They seem kinda gifted.
I'm thinking, though, that Irish is pretty straightforward.
I wonder
it seems it was big in New Orleans that if you seem right you get wronged. I need a place to grow and develop, too!
Ah!
I kinda wished I quit college in New Orleans and moved to Orlando. I can't believe I'm already 26. I've been here for 6 years.
I will not do anything to say I did it.
I mean, I don't say "nigger."
People think that I am one and that me being a good person doesn't make them look as good by comparison.
People think that I am one and that me being a good person doesn't make them look as good by comparison.
You know, it's very peculiar
people would get at me like I'm not even already branded a good person. All these things that happened were just to get at me.
See
People really prefer to do things that aren't really safe for me.
They say, oh, you deserve it, but it's not good for me, and in the end people forget that people wanted me to do it for their own fun. I can't get beyond this. People are just stuck here and blame all their problems on me, literally.
They say, oh, you deserve it, but it's not good for me, and in the end people forget that people wanted me to do it for their own fun. I can't get beyond this. People are just stuck here and blame all their problems on me, literally.
So, what's at stake?
It seems that lots of people get away with saying certain things. Maybe, they don't expect anything to happen, but I guess people go out of their way to get them back even if things should be okay and perhaps more casual. I don't know. For some reason, the thought escaped me.
I used to just post online innocently, and I didn't know anyone was following me. I didn't look to see if they were. I was happier. Then, something happened. ... I had nothing else to do but to start looking up more on the internet and ended up meeting people I wasn't prepared to meet. I sorta wish I did it before, so that things would be cool, probably.
I used to just post online innocently, and I didn't know anyone was following me. I didn't look to see if they were. I was happier. Then, something happened. ... I had nothing else to do but to start looking up more on the internet and ended up meeting people I wasn't prepared to meet. I sorta wish I did it before, so that things would be cool, probably.
Oh, so, I see, now.
Supposedly, bad things are in store to happen, anyway, but maybe not. I wonder why people can't just shift it in the other direction.
I feel this is all some big game
of mixed people who have Irish genes, but somehow I'm not playing.
People think the Irish are all creative and stuff and cool and nasty at the same time.
They think it's about like stimulating someone in a way before they get criticized and depending on how much you're used to getting away without doing anything wrong, they will proportion certain amounts of punishments, moreso if you're a perfectionist just to be nasty.
Just think of how all I just said applies as to what doing something wrong is.
They try to copy others and see how you are treated and then do something in the wrong way trying to look cool. Well, it might seem cool, but I'm thinking of how you try to control certain people as though you have more of a handle on the situation. I was brought up to have respect for other ways of thinking, but it's backfired with people who are mad and don't care. It makes me wonder. You could actually look at it as a topic. I just feel things are being brought up with me postpartum. I can see why. I suppose everyone gets to have a say or has to have a message to give. I suppose I could be in the wrong, but people forget how I'm in the right in other ways and how my intentions must have been pure. I suppose those things I do are a bit crazy. I guess we'll see what else happens and if we can move along.
People think the Irish are all creative and stuff and cool and nasty at the same time.
They think it's about like stimulating someone in a way before they get criticized and depending on how much you're used to getting away without doing anything wrong, they will proportion certain amounts of punishments, moreso if you're a perfectionist just to be nasty.
Just think of how all I just said applies as to what doing something wrong is.
They try to copy others and see how you are treated and then do something in the wrong way trying to look cool. Well, it might seem cool, but I'm thinking of how you try to control certain people as though you have more of a handle on the situation. I was brought up to have respect for other ways of thinking, but it's backfired with people who are mad and don't care. It makes me wonder. You could actually look at it as a topic. I just feel things are being brought up with me postpartum. I can see why. I suppose everyone gets to have a say or has to have a message to give. I suppose I could be in the wrong, but people forget how I'm in the right in other ways and how my intentions must have been pure. I suppose those things I do are a bit crazy. I guess we'll see what else happens and if we can move along.
I was gonna say something else.
Well, yea, like I can do or say something while I'm upset and people still take advantage of that even if I don't want to show it.
Something "Creative" People Do
They like to make me get upset and then act like it's so bad to get a bit upset inside when something bad is about to happen, not sure why, just to make it seem like I can't be perfect and that it happened because I got a little upset inside.
What did I do wrong?
People are so critical of when I get upset. Things for me aren't so good, anymore. In a way, they are, I have to see, that things should always be okay at some level. If I do something normal where I'm mad but not actually intentionally, people get at me in unproportionate manners. They all want me to learn certain things on how to live my life but never do it in words but rather take up my life in order to do it. I thought if someone did something to you, you could be upset or do something about it or change your ways, hopefully though that you find a good way to change things.
Why do people keep getting at me?
Every time I do something that could have been done better, people take something away from me. I even end up finding good things in it each time, which makes me feel tricked. Still, it changes things and makes me uncomfortable. I don't feel I was even beckoned to be as critical. Some things just aren't full-blown the deed, and I go back and rethink what I thought that should have been different. Things all happen for reasons, though, but I just have to learn from what happens and try not to do anything bad in the first place...
Not Letting Me Get Away
It seems people aren't through with me and think they have a right to boss me around in what I should do and how I should act.
Well, I never met anything bad, so go weep over that. I mean, I never had bad intentions. I thought it was the thought that counted.
Well, talk about not knowing what you want for a long time with someone.
So, I'm supposedly not worth much, when I'm a lot nicer than most people.
People act like they like kidding around, but certain situations get to them.
I wish I were off in college or had some sort of career. I'm guessing you want to eventually take that away from me somehow but can't.
Anyway, now what? I am curious as to how someone can still be engaged in a thought long after they've abandoned it.
I think people are getting at me just because they can but skipping people who are downright oblivious to others's feelings.
I don't feel I need to be taught a lesson. Maybe, I could do with some adjusting and conversation on things like etiquette.
Suddenly, people are acting like I'm really bad when I never start anything. I do get upset and do things by accident. Others influence me in my decisions when I try to butter up their issues for them. I suppose it hurts to do some things you don't have to that aren't really that nice.
I just don't feel people should be hacking away at me.
Another thing is I never really asked for an unproportionate amount of attention from anyone. I've been upset at not getting any but soon learned the freedom I had in going online.
I am curious about people getting plain mad at me for nothing. I don't know what's going on.
So, I dunno. I just feel this is being celebrated a lot. It's clear it's a scheme.
Well, what can I say? I'm sorry about some things and take them back. I never meant anything bad in the first place.
Some things don't "sit well" with me, actually. I mean, I guess they'd humor others, but I feel I am destined for failure if I mess up in in one wrong move.
I don't quite understand being punished for something that was actually a misunderstanding, strange at it may seem.
I suppose people try to dip in a little in the pool without really getting at me. So, they like to practice creative ways of getting at me. I didn't really think that was nice, though. I suppose others are just dealing with the situation and want to get into it.
Later, maybe.
Well, sure, you are supposed to suffer some to right things.
Well, I never met anything bad, so go weep over that. I mean, I never had bad intentions. I thought it was the thought that counted.
Well, talk about not knowing what you want for a long time with someone.
So, I'm supposedly not worth much, when I'm a lot nicer than most people.
People act like they like kidding around, but certain situations get to them.
I wish I were off in college or had some sort of career. I'm guessing you want to eventually take that away from me somehow but can't.
Anyway, now what? I am curious as to how someone can still be engaged in a thought long after they've abandoned it.
I think people are getting at me just because they can but skipping people who are downright oblivious to others's feelings.
I don't feel I need to be taught a lesson. Maybe, I could do with some adjusting and conversation on things like etiquette.
Suddenly, people are acting like I'm really bad when I never start anything. I do get upset and do things by accident. Others influence me in my decisions when I try to butter up their issues for them. I suppose it hurts to do some things you don't have to that aren't really that nice.
I just don't feel people should be hacking away at me.
Another thing is I never really asked for an unproportionate amount of attention from anyone. I've been upset at not getting any but soon learned the freedom I had in going online.
I am curious about people getting plain mad at me for nothing. I don't know what's going on.
So, I dunno. I just feel this is being celebrated a lot. It's clear it's a scheme.
Well, what can I say? I'm sorry about some things and take them back. I never meant anything bad in the first place.
Some things don't "sit well" with me, actually. I mean, I guess they'd humor others, but I feel I am destined for failure if I mess up in in one wrong move.
I don't quite understand being punished for something that was actually a misunderstanding, strange at it may seem.
I suppose people try to dip in a little in the pool without really getting at me. So, they like to practice creative ways of getting at me. I didn't really think that was nice, though. I suppose others are just dealing with the situation and want to get into it.
Later, maybe.
Well, sure, you are supposed to suffer some to right things.
College
I feel as though I was supposed to have a good college experience maybe in voice and ballet when I was still younger.
So, I see people
princessing others around. Okay. This is kinda dragging on. People don't really get what position I'm in. Princess away without me.
People of Less Fru-Fru Cultures
When they're clearly not into something don't need to come to annoy people.
What do you see?
People going overboard thinking I did terrible things that need to be punished redundantly?
Sure, maybe they were the ones who promoted the opposing views, but then again so did the people who hate on it now. You could try to deny it in some people. It is kind of obvious, though, that my goodness was condoned.
Sure, maybe they were the ones who promoted the opposing views, but then again so did the people who hate on it now. You could try to deny it in some people. It is kind of obvious, though, that my goodness was condoned.
I'm having trouble deciding on a major.
My mom said I should do theater. I'm thinking that means I hijack to the new community college and take the prerequisites for musical theater and in due time transfer to UCF to major in musical theater there.
The other thing is that I wanted to do an associates in dance, which is only offered at a different community college, which is okay actually. It doesn't have musical theater, strangely enough, but I was thinking of doing music, instead, on top of dance.
The other thing is that I wanted to do an associates in dance, which is only offered at a different community college, which is okay actually. It doesn't have musical theater, strangely enough, but I was thinking of doing music, instead, on top of dance.
We float off, and we die.
Nothing matters, anymore.
I don't know how to talk to the dead much, but I know how to believe in life.
Might as well die.
I don't know how to talk to the dead much, but I know how to believe in life.
Might as well die.
Regret
I was having a nice time at home growing more with my parents supporting me while I was too tired to work.
After my birthday, last year, I started calling my grandma every day, maybe sometime in September or October and until my birthday just about a month ago.
My aunt visited me my birthday last year. I am glad she came, but if I were go to back in time I would probably tell her to come some other time since my birthday at the time was kinda private with just my immediate family. It's what I'd tell anyone. I told a girl a little younger than me that on my 15th birthday, I think it was.
I had a lot of fun going to the movies every weekend with my dad.
The birthday before, I had just gotten out of the mental hospital and my hair was pretty short, maybe an inch or show long of being shaved bald. I was experimenting with hair dye. Twice, I shaved my head after experimenting with hair dye. I almost was gonna do it again but decided I was unique and might have had some influence not to, after all.
So, when I got out of the mental hospital it was still 2010. My birthday this year was so marvelous. I just pray the future holds fortune.
I had fun going to the movies with my dad and calling his mom each night. I guess going to the movies was worth it since it taught me to sit through movies alas again. I had taken a break.
The big cut in my life was me thinking someone wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word in good fun online because people started feeling violent toward me all the time naturally.
My grandma is pretty healthy, but I'm gonna have to say moreso that I wish I didn't start calling her again after my break because (1) it was awkward, (2) we've actually gotten upset at each other though don't have problems forgetting it, and (3) I just wanted that private time with my parents and this ended up being late each night, usually, when my parents were actually here. I'm sending my grandma a letter saying I might start calling back like in a few months.
My life isn't really settled. Talking to her makes life seem longer though, so it may be helpful. I'd even slept a lot then, in anticipation of my birthday coming up, when we went to Disney and I had like the best time of my life, my family and I, my dad, mom, and younger brother.
It feels like it's too late all the time, but something always comes up. I am thankful for the good times I had, but I wonder what it would have been like otherwise. It's funny when I didn't come up my grandma started telling me to call her more often, too. I actually did when I became a young adult.
I firmly believe that things weren't rectified in my life and that they didn't make sense.
After my birthday, last year, I started calling my grandma every day, maybe sometime in September or October and until my birthday just about a month ago.
My aunt visited me my birthday last year. I am glad she came, but if I were go to back in time I would probably tell her to come some other time since my birthday at the time was kinda private with just my immediate family. It's what I'd tell anyone. I told a girl a little younger than me that on my 15th birthday, I think it was.
I had a lot of fun going to the movies every weekend with my dad.
The birthday before, I had just gotten out of the mental hospital and my hair was pretty short, maybe an inch or show long of being shaved bald. I was experimenting with hair dye. Twice, I shaved my head after experimenting with hair dye. I almost was gonna do it again but decided I was unique and might have had some influence not to, after all.
So, when I got out of the mental hospital it was still 2010. My birthday this year was so marvelous. I just pray the future holds fortune.
I had fun going to the movies with my dad and calling his mom each night. I guess going to the movies was worth it since it taught me to sit through movies alas again. I had taken a break.
The big cut in my life was me thinking someone wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word in good fun online because people started feeling violent toward me all the time naturally.
My grandma is pretty healthy, but I'm gonna have to say moreso that I wish I didn't start calling her again after my break because (1) it was awkward, (2) we've actually gotten upset at each other though don't have problems forgetting it, and (3) I just wanted that private time with my parents and this ended up being late each night, usually, when my parents were actually here. I'm sending my grandma a letter saying I might start calling back like in a few months.
My life isn't really settled. Talking to her makes life seem longer though, so it may be helpful. I'd even slept a lot then, in anticipation of my birthday coming up, when we went to Disney and I had like the best time of my life, my family and I, my dad, mom, and younger brother.
It feels like it's too late all the time, but something always comes up. I am thankful for the good times I had, but I wonder what it would have been like otherwise. It's funny when I didn't come up my grandma started telling me to call her more often, too. I actually did when I became a young adult.
I firmly believe that things weren't rectified in my life and that they didn't make sense.
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