Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Why give me one?
I wonder if some babies are born in perfect worlds. I mean, are they perfect or are they just fortunate|lucky?
But aren't they the ones suddenly claiming
you shouldn't be with your parents, anymore?
You know, a lot of people live with their grandmother and practically with their aunts.
You know, a lot of people live with their grandmother and practically with their aunts.
Wow, the situation isn't even
an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.
Some people are not so bad and do things for reasons!
Some people are not so bad and do things for reasons!
Some people are so lost.
People have made exceptions to the rules. The truth remains the truth. Things happen for reasons.
How could it not being as bad as it could be
be okay and since when are crazy things allowed only for some people?
Some people change the rules in the process.
As though there ever were any! Some things remain unspoken for a time.
Held at Brink and Mistakes
People are crazy about what would happen to them in certain situations.
Every heard of if you like to do it at all then keep doing it?
Every heard of if you like to do it at all then keep doing it?
I guess you just can't escape
getting things right.
It's funny how maybe there isn't always a reason for everything, though, like you've done something unforgivable, even if you're sorry and it was an accident, anyway.
It's funny how maybe there isn't always a reason for everything, though, like you've done something unforgivable, even if you're sorry and it was an accident, anyway.
Why do people think
that it can't be that I'm okay, that there was a reason for everything? That's the kind of person I am. It might not be all okay in ways. The point is though that I guess that logic for some reason exists.
Sometimes, the best people go through rough times.
Like, they get sick, but they're still better off than anyone else for making the sacrifices and decisions that they did.
It's funny what makes people come to care.
People who do wrong things on a daily basis are let to go like they're worthless.
It's funny how those "smart" people aren't good enough.
I guess they don't have to get punished because their lives were different.
People are so mean and don't know what they're doing.
They're not even in the same situation, and that was the problem to begin with.
Good people are prodded
into believing that evil should exist and that they should be evil as a sacrifice to their ego, which is unnecessary and unproven.
People's Mistakes
People do not see the situation literally and just want to pick at you as though they're your mom when they really don't care about you at all.
Some people can attest to that in more ways than one they cannot be trusted.
Some people can attest to that in more ways than one they cannot be trusted.
The picture of me
is from a little after the end of the school year before I moved away from Florida.
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I changed the link:
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I changed the link:
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I'm going somewhere tomorrow around 12:30-1 P.M.
I am not sure if we're doing anything else, so I don't know when I'll be back. I could be back as early as around 3 P.M.
Elaborating and Trickery
Some people spend all their time on making things up that you did in intention in your talking.
Also, people think they can hide themselves bargaining on tricks.
Also, people think they can hide themselves bargaining on tricks.
What I Learned in New Orleans in College
etc.
I only have so much steam. Gotta use it to the best of my survival... :'(
I only have so much steam. Gotta use it to the best of my survival... :'(
I JUST laughed so hard at one poster
that I got stimulated from being stimulated. Whooh. Never had that happen. :|
I wonder if some people would like to be treated
how they treat me. They already believe in creating your own protocol.
I'm taking a break talking to my grandma.
About going back, I dunno if I wanna do Bible verses. It plays with my clear mind.
My dad might start kickboxing again.
I wonder why he waited so long. He told me on our walk after talking to his mom. We were supposed to go to the gym together, but he's getting a bike he likes better, probably, though before my parents said it was too expensive. It's funny the kickboxing is 3 times a week and he wanted to just go to the gym once a week, on Sundays. I'm glad he has these goals because he needs them.
Ghost
2012-05-28 - night - I saw a churning shadow by my dad's glasses.
Also, I put the ghosts in order from most recent.
Also, I put the ghosts in order from most recent.
Why does my grandma take liberty
over things and why did my dad listen to her and not admit it? It seeped out later.
And in his mind
he is dissing my new profile picture and acts like he didn't do anything wrong. He did just want my mom doesn't want him to like he's a toy I mean I'm a toy and he's trying to stimulate me. My mom did what she wasn't supposed to do when he left for work once and I ended up in the mental hospital for a day. He said today also I don't know where you're gonna sleep tonight if I don't take my medicine.
I don't know what my problem is.
I mean my dad's problem is. He was talking to my mom and seemed to sneer that I was the black kid on the TV, empty and not white.
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I went to college in New Orleans and lived in the area as a teenager. I know the city is very dirty. After a big hurricane there, though, it was a lot cleaner.
Only My Dad
He was the only one totally not for me calling the 1-year-old the "n" word on command to begin with. So, I should have a soft spot for him. :|
Retarded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My dad acted like saying the word "retarded" was "retarded." It's something OTHER PEOPLE DO TOO YOU IDIOT
Something That Happened
1st, it sounded like my dad called me a nigger in the noise he was making, making up for it in some way. I got mad. He yelled at me. While we were watching the movie, he acted like he was stimulating someone I care about. This was after he talked to my grandma, from the "n" word thing when he called me in to do pills with him.
I had thought that they had
that it was okay to call someone something if they called you it 1st. They symbolically did just that to me.
"Just in Case"
You know, I don't like people who live like a mold with a big mold and say they can act as good as a Vietnamese with how precious something evil is.
Anyway, I don't like that.
Just in case I use it? I shouldn't be bashed, either way! I was convinced they wanted me to use it from being bashed about my race by posters who were supposedly Tim Burton!
Anyway, I don't like that.
Just in case I use it? I shouldn't be bashed, either way! I was convinced they wanted me to use it from being bashed about my race by posters who were supposedly Tim Burton!
The Facts That Matter to People
People need to grasp that I thought someone wanted me to call them the "n" word regardless of whether they did or not, it's provable and it's publicized!
No one can be trying to teach me something...
...I already know. That situation is within the situation.
Monday, May 28, 2012
My dad and I've been...
...watching Happy Feet 2 and I've been talking to him about people treating me funnily about the "n" word.
All Day
It sounded like I was cursing on the inside, but most people didn't mind though they probably influenced me to do it. It started out I e-mailed my aunt and told her about my grocery shopping. My mom came in. She was testy, in a way that made sense, and in the end I pushed her, like friendly but upset. She's like you never pushed me, and I don't remember but think I have. She's barged in on me in ways. So, my dad also acted differently. I came out and looked at them wondering about their last secret message. I stomped my feet today at them but not like crazily.
He had just talked to my grandma...
...I've been up since 5 and am kinda tired.
He changed all of a sudden. We were doing pills and it sounded like he called me a nigger. Then, he seemed to try to stimulate me by thinking of someone I care about in a way I didn't like.
He changed all of a sudden. We were doing pills and it sounded like he called me a nigger. Then, he seemed to try to stimulate me by thinking of someone I care about in a way I didn't like.
I've been...
...out talking with my dad about the "n" word thing. We couldn't finish. We finished up on Johnny Depp, my dad saying basically he doesn't care about anyone but himself in that before he said no one cares about anyone and then that Johnny Depp like for instance doesn't know about me and stuff like that. I had complained near the end that people can read into me even when I don't want them to and it's because they think something like they aren't capable of being a movie star but are so good they can read into me like it's not because I'm smart. My dad said Johnny Depp won't know me unless I am like in a movie with him.
Bye!
I'll be gone all day. I might go jogging this evening. Well, I might be back in the late afternoon or maybe at night. Like, I might be here by 10 P.M. Dunno.
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