Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Good people are prodded
into believing that evil should exist and that they should be evil as a sacrifice to their ego, which is unnecessary and unproven.
People's Mistakes
People do not see the situation literally and just want to pick at you as though they're your mom when they really don't care about you at all.
Some people can attest to that in more ways than one they cannot be trusted.
Some people can attest to that in more ways than one they cannot be trusted.
The picture of me
is from a little after the end of the school year before I moved away from Florida.
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I changed the link:
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I changed the link:
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I'm going somewhere tomorrow around 12:30-1 P.M.
I am not sure if we're doing anything else, so I don't know when I'll be back. I could be back as early as around 3 P.M.
Elaborating and Trickery
Some people spend all their time on making things up that you did in intention in your talking.
Also, people think they can hide themselves bargaining on tricks.
Also, people think they can hide themselves bargaining on tricks.
What I Learned in New Orleans in College
etc.
I only have so much steam. Gotta use it to the best of my survival... :'(
I only have so much steam. Gotta use it to the best of my survival... :'(
I JUST laughed so hard at one poster
that I got stimulated from being stimulated. Whooh. Never had that happen. :|
I wonder if some people would like to be treated
how they treat me. They already believe in creating your own protocol.
I'm taking a break talking to my grandma.
About going back, I dunno if I wanna do Bible verses. It plays with my clear mind.
My dad might start kickboxing again.
I wonder why he waited so long. He told me on our walk after talking to his mom. We were supposed to go to the gym together, but he's getting a bike he likes better, probably, though before my parents said it was too expensive. It's funny the kickboxing is 3 times a week and he wanted to just go to the gym once a week, on Sundays. I'm glad he has these goals because he needs them.
Ghost
2012-05-28 - night - I saw a churning shadow by my dad's glasses.
Also, I put the ghosts in order from most recent.
Also, I put the ghosts in order from most recent.
Why does my grandma take liberty
over things and why did my dad listen to her and not admit it? It seeped out later.
And in his mind
he is dissing my new profile picture and acts like he didn't do anything wrong. He did just want my mom doesn't want him to like he's a toy I mean I'm a toy and he's trying to stimulate me. My mom did what she wasn't supposed to do when he left for work once and I ended up in the mental hospital for a day. He said today also I don't know where you're gonna sleep tonight if I don't take my medicine.
I don't know what my problem is.
I mean my dad's problem is. He was talking to my mom and seemed to sneer that I was the black kid on the TV, empty and not white.
Reply to a Deleted Topic
I went to college in New Orleans and lived in the area as a teenager. I know the city is very dirty. After a big hurricane there, though, it was a lot cleaner.
Only My Dad
He was the only one totally not for me calling the 1-year-old the "n" word on command to begin with. So, I should have a soft spot for him. :|
Retarded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My dad acted like saying the word "retarded" was "retarded." It's something OTHER PEOPLE DO TOO YOU IDIOT
Something That Happened
1st, it sounded like my dad called me a nigger in the noise he was making, making up for it in some way. I got mad. He yelled at me. While we were watching the movie, he acted like he was stimulating someone I care about. This was after he talked to my grandma, from the "n" word thing when he called me in to do pills with him.
I had thought that they had
that it was okay to call someone something if they called you it 1st. They symbolically did just that to me.
"Just in Case"
You know, I don't like people who live like a mold with a big mold and say they can act as good as a Vietnamese with how precious something evil is.
Anyway, I don't like that.
Just in case I use it? I shouldn't be bashed, either way! I was convinced they wanted me to use it from being bashed about my race by posters who were supposedly Tim Burton!
Anyway, I don't like that.
Just in case I use it? I shouldn't be bashed, either way! I was convinced they wanted me to use it from being bashed about my race by posters who were supposedly Tim Burton!
The Facts That Matter to People
People need to grasp that I thought someone wanted me to call them the "n" word regardless of whether they did or not, it's provable and it's publicized!
No one can be trying to teach me something...
...I already know. That situation is within the situation.
Monday, May 28, 2012
My dad and I've been...
...watching Happy Feet 2 and I've been talking to him about people treating me funnily about the "n" word.
All Day
It sounded like I was cursing on the inside, but most people didn't mind though they probably influenced me to do it. It started out I e-mailed my aunt and told her about my grocery shopping. My mom came in. She was testy, in a way that made sense, and in the end I pushed her, like friendly but upset. She's like you never pushed me, and I don't remember but think I have. She's barged in on me in ways. So, my dad also acted differently. I came out and looked at them wondering about their last secret message. I stomped my feet today at them but not like crazily.
He had just talked to my grandma...
...I've been up since 5 and am kinda tired.
He changed all of a sudden. We were doing pills and it sounded like he called me a nigger. Then, he seemed to try to stimulate me by thinking of someone I care about in a way I didn't like.
He changed all of a sudden. We were doing pills and it sounded like he called me a nigger. Then, he seemed to try to stimulate me by thinking of someone I care about in a way I didn't like.
I've been...
...out talking with my dad about the "n" word thing. We couldn't finish. We finished up on Johnny Depp, my dad saying basically he doesn't care about anyone but himself in that before he said no one cares about anyone and then that Johnny Depp like for instance doesn't know about me and stuff like that. I had complained near the end that people can read into me even when I don't want them to and it's because they think something like they aren't capable of being a movie star but are so good they can read into me like it's not because I'm smart. My dad said Johnny Depp won't know me unless I am like in a movie with him.
Bye!
I'll be gone all day. I might go jogging this evening. Well, I might be back in the late afternoon or maybe at night. Like, I might be here by 10 P.M. Dunno.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Why does everyone else get away with fooling around?
Just because they've gotten themselves in a bind doesn't mean they can use me. This stuff doesn't have to happen to others!
It's nice to know that
things should be done in an orderly fashion and that rest preps you up for when you're able to make decisions in the world, one day.
I can't find this post, neither.
I said something about Johnny Depp having things Mickey Mouse probably because I was upset about the "n" word thing. I'll try not to get upset. It's funny when he does that. We all do that sometimes.
Why do I feel the urge to say sorry
long after I already have? I thought usually you did it one time, maybe others, though for most people that would be considered unnecessary. I didn't think there were any exceptions to the rule.
Is it something I missed? Why doesn't anyone else do anything like this?
Is it something I missed? Why doesn't anyone else do anything like this?
Certain Words Versus Certain Actions
There is no "bad word," just bad meanings. These days, it's become safe to not use them against others, though I accept when people are bad to me. I agree, it seems like it would be out-of-place to use certain ones, but at least the person knows they didn't do anything wrong if they are called something, though they may have done something wrong to be in that position, depends really.
I know people don't get in trouble for using lots of words a lot. I thought I'd use them only when they fit in and not against others, I guess unless the unlikely even that I lost it in which case would be a defense. It's become so that they pry on perfectionists so that when attacked you shouldn't be using bad words. It's probably not an idea that makes sense, anyway. Just consider these words fads.
I know people don't get in trouble for using lots of words a lot. I thought I'd use them only when they fit in and not against others, I guess unless the unlikely even that I lost it in which case would be a defense. It's become so that they pry on perfectionists so that when attacked you shouldn't be using bad words. It's probably not an idea that makes sense, anyway. Just consider these words fads.
I can't find a post.
I thought I said Johnny Depp was ditzy. People say he acts drunk. That's probably because they say he drinks a lot of alcohol. At least, I didn't say that. I was mad already about something that's had some people up on me. I didn't say what it was. I already addressed that issue, though. It was quite successful of an address. I can't even find the sensation I was thinking of. :( Anyway, sorry. I just find that his fans or the public take him haphazardly and keep getting confused. He seems to designate that his fans are innocent.
Johnny Depp
I was thinking about him while I posted some things but didn't say it was him specifically I intended to point out.
They seem to always find something.
Though, it doesn't make sense. I'm hoping my dad just gets a new remote.
Johnny Depp
He probably doesn't like being told this, but he did seem to put pressure on posting about him online after Sweeney Todd, or is it just me that I did music and thought I should? It's just that you can't prove the opposite point if that's not what happened. I forget how I figured.
I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE PICKING ON ME
"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" didn't play and record on Friday. Now, the remote's not working. It's just not working pressing the guide and record options. I threw it 2 years ago when I was mad, and suddenly this happens. That's when I went to the mental hospital for a month.
Why not just happily roll along?
Go along with the crowd and laugh at how bad I am and my situation!
Don't deny though when it seems like I as a person deserve something.
Don't deny though when it seems like I as a person deserve something.
Flawed Logic
You'd think, oh, well that's too bad if you wanted a better relationship with your parents because I don't have one.
Proof No One Cares About Me
So, I have problems when I go to the ice cream shop with customers and with the people who work at all the smoothie places.
Also, I think Helena Bonham Carter wants me dead in at 1st acting like I should call her daughter the "n" word online. I can see her thinking that I might kill her from being so mad at how she rubs in her joy that Tim Burton is her father and I don't get to see him. He's stopped doing interviews, too, so I've lost interest in him. Not really, but he seems nice when he does get out in public. Anyway, I can just see Helena Bonham Carter saying, "She's going to do it" about her daughter acting mean, and she did. She cares so much about her daughter she wants to get me mad enough to kill her, but I won't, of course. She thinks I need to get it out another way and plans to do me away because she wants Tim Burton all for herself and he likes me and she's Jewish and figures she can pick on me being Chinese-Indonesian though Tim Burton liked me a lot.
Also, I think Helena Bonham Carter wants me dead in at 1st acting like I should call her daughter the "n" word online. I can see her thinking that I might kill her from being so mad at how she rubs in her joy that Tim Burton is her father and I don't get to see him. He's stopped doing interviews, too, so I've lost interest in him. Not really, but he seems nice when he does get out in public. Anyway, I can just see Helena Bonham Carter saying, "She's going to do it" about her daughter acting mean, and she did. She cares so much about her daughter she wants to get me mad enough to kill her, but I won't, of course. She thinks I need to get it out another way and plans to do me away because she wants Tim Burton all for herself and he likes me and she's Jewish and figures she can pick on me being Chinese-Indonesian though Tim Burton liked me a lot.
I felt really depressed, but...
Highlight to read if you want to read about going to the bathroom
I didn't feel like I had to pooh, but I had to pee but not that badly. I ended up going just because I had to blow my nose and got my hands dirty. I do have hand sanitizer in my room. Anyway, so I went and I poohed kind of a lot. I feel better now.
I didn't feel like I had to pooh, but I had to pee but not that badly. I ended up going just because I had to blow my nose and got my hands dirty. I do have hand sanitizer in my room. Anyway, so I went and I poohed kind of a lot. I feel better now.
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